#126

So, here is something I started working on today. Actual brain cells were used to write this. Not a journal entry at all, but some sort of story forming!

"If I don't jump, I'm never gonna fall."

Yes, I actually said that. Out loud. What was I thinking?

Actually, that is an easy question. I was thinking I wanted to fall in love with the blue eyed boy across the room. I was thinking I wanted his arms around my waist. I was thinking a lot of other things that I will keep to myself.

What I wasn't thinking was 'What would Dad think about this?' Because, come on, what a buzz kill.

So there I was, all of twenty three years, wearing a dress that could easily have been a napkin, at a party, with a drink in my hand. Are you beginning to get the picture? I sashayed my skinny little self over to the blue eyed boy. I cocked my hip. Looked at him with a smile in my eye.

And right about there is the point where I wake up. Because I am not skinny, I wear clothes that cover my body, and I would never walk up to a guy. Ever.

I would also never take the 'jumping/falling' risk. Because who wants to jump when there isn't a safety net?

I'm Kelly. And this is my story. My 'How the wallflower gets the Prince' story. And my 'Sadder than a country song' story. And my 'Life is what it is' story

Really, it's all very touching and mysterious and toe curling and..