I went to the neurologist today. He was super friendly, even though I got the feeling he had no idea who I was. I'm kind of ok with that, at least he was nice. Shallow, I know. But I'm ok with that today.
Because today my mind was too occupied with Mommy thoughts. There is a preschool on post that the girls might possibly be able to go to, after their birthday. A few hours a day, a few times a week. A chance to be around other kids on a regular basis. Some learning time with someone besides Mommy and Daddy.
Sounds pretty great. Well, kind of. I don't want my baby girls to grow up so quick! But I know it would be good for him. The real world is an issue though. This preschool costs money. Not a lot- I really think it's totally reasonable. But it is money, times two. And the time they would be 'at school' isnt long enough for me to even think about working.
So watch me put a rabbit outta my hat. Or something like that... At least I have a couple months to think about it all.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
#274
Having a best friend is really one of Life's greatest gifts. Having a best friend that lives too many miles away is just not fun. Sure, we are on the same continent now. But we are still too far away.
The girls and I went to a new play group this morning. It was not what I wanted. There was almost no activity. The girls sat at a table playing with play-doh and coloring. Not really any interaction. But I overheard someone say the usual leader wasn't there today. So we will check it out next week. The girls seemed to have a good time- though they had massive energy to burn once we were outside!
J is home. He was supposed to be gone for the night and most of tomorrow. I was in my mindset of J being gone- its my special little bubble, cant explain it. But then he just showed up at dinnertime. Such a man! Too bad it was scrambled eggs and biscuits!
The girls and I went to a new play group this morning. It was not what I wanted. There was almost no activity. The girls sat at a table playing with play-doh and coloring. Not really any interaction. But I overheard someone say the usual leader wasn't there today. So we will check it out next week. The girls seemed to have a good time- though they had massive energy to burn once we were outside!
J is home. He was supposed to be gone for the night and most of tomorrow. I was in my mindset of J being gone- its my special little bubble, cant explain it. But then he just showed up at dinnertime. Such a man! Too bad it was scrambled eggs and biscuits!
Monday, August 29, 2011
#273
My kids are pretty amazing. I know, every parent thinks that. But my girls really are!
For a while now, we have been having the nap time battle. For a long while. Sometimes they nap, sometimes they don't. They are cranky or indifferent. It's all a frustrating pain in my ass. Every day. Should I lay them down? Let them play? Plan to be home at a certain time? Put them down later? What do I do?
How about put them down earlier? Seriously. Yesterday I was feeling like poo, J was working, the girls were full of it. So after lunch and a little play time, I told them to go to bed. I couldnt take anymore. And they went to sleep! No fight. They didn't play, didn't get out of bed. Just took a nap!
So, today I did the same thing. And it worked. Again! Awesome!
And yes, that really does make me this happy. I am sure tomorrow they will act like fools at nap time and no one will get rest. But for the last two days, we have all got a nice break.
For a while now, we have been having the nap time battle. For a long while. Sometimes they nap, sometimes they don't. They are cranky or indifferent. It's all a frustrating pain in my ass. Every day. Should I lay them down? Let them play? Plan to be home at a certain time? Put them down later? What do I do?
How about put them down earlier? Seriously. Yesterday I was feeling like poo, J was working, the girls were full of it. So after lunch and a little play time, I told them to go to bed. I couldnt take anymore. And they went to sleep! No fight. They didn't play, didn't get out of bed. Just took a nap!
So, today I did the same thing. And it worked. Again! Awesome!
And yes, that really does make me this happy. I am sure tomorrow they will act like fools at nap time and no one will get rest. But for the last two days, we have all got a nice break.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
#272
As far as Sundays go, today was a good one. Mass, and nothing else worth mentioning.
...I think I need to put myself on a schedule. A wake up time, exercise, planned activities for the girls, time set aside to write... I don't know- jus feeling like I am sucking at managing my time lately. Possibly because I have a stack of books from the library. I requested 6 books and of course they all came in at the same time.
So that got me thinking about time management. And the fact that I am not so good at managing my time lately. Or the girls' time. They need friends and activities and learning time and all that stuff.
And that go me thinking that I am so getting sucked in to the whole overplanned overstimulated child thing. Gah!
Done thinking. Going to read my book.
...I think I need to put myself on a schedule. A wake up time, exercise, planned activities for the girls, time set aside to write... I don't know- jus feeling like I am sucking at managing my time lately. Possibly because I have a stack of books from the library. I requested 6 books and of course they all came in at the same time.
So that got me thinking about time management. And the fact that I am not so good at managing my time lately. Or the girls' time. They need friends and activities and learning time and all that stuff.
And that go me thinking that I am so getting sucked in to the whole overplanned overstimulated child thing. Gah!
Done thinking. Going to read my book.
Saturday, August 27, 2011
#271
I think I am being a craptastic friend. Probably.
I kind of feel disconnected from everyone. I have been too wrapped up in my own life. Adjusting to this new place, dealing with a couple piles of drama... Like I said, I have been too wrapped up in my own life. So I have no idea what is going on with the people that matter to me.
Because they do matter. A ton. I just suck at showing it.
My awesome friends in Germany: I miss you so much. Life in the States rocks, but it would be 1,000,000 times better if my friends were here. I would love to see you tomorrow morning at the Chapel, or meet you for lunch at the Stables. I want to catch up. I don't want to do the same old-same old 'miss you' conversation. I want to really know how you are doing.
Everyone else that is scattered around the world: I love you too! And I miss all of you, no matter where you are. Let's make the time to catch up. Ok?
I kind of feel disconnected from everyone. I have been too wrapped up in my own life. Adjusting to this new place, dealing with a couple piles of drama... Like I said, I have been too wrapped up in my own life. So I have no idea what is going on with the people that matter to me.
Because they do matter. A ton. I just suck at showing it.
My awesome friends in Germany: I miss you so much. Life in the States rocks, but it would be 1,000,000 times better if my friends were here. I would love to see you tomorrow morning at the Chapel, or meet you for lunch at the Stables. I want to catch up. I don't want to do the same old-same old 'miss you' conversation. I want to really know how you are doing.
Everyone else that is scattered around the world: I love you too! And I miss all of you, no matter where you are. Let's make the time to catch up. Ok?
Friday, August 26, 2011
#270
Today was a good day.
Until the girls didn't take a nap and acted like monsters. And J came home in a craptastic mood.
Seriously. Not impressed with what happened this evening. I am still pretty upset about it. But is it acknowledged? Nope.
Oh the joys of being a wife and mother.
Until the girls didn't take a nap and acted like monsters. And J came home in a craptastic mood.
Seriously. Not impressed with what happened this evening. I am still pretty upset about it. But is it acknowledged? Nope.
Oh the joys of being a wife and mother.
Thursday, August 25, 2011
#269
I know I am just the wife. But my husband rocks. He is such an amazing leader and soldier. So I love it when that is recognized. Today one of his 'higher ups' pulled him aside to tell him that. Actually, he told J that J is the kind of NCO this Army needs, there aren't many like him. He does the job better than most E6s and E7s. And J will continue to get more responsibilities because he can handle them.
Seriously?! "you do such a great job! Here, do 500 jobs!" I keep telling J he needs to learn how to be a slacker!
But really, I love that others see how hard J works. Because he is one great guy.
Seriously?! "you do such a great job! Here, do 500 jobs!" I keep telling J he needs to learn how to be a slacker!
But really, I love that others see how hard J works. Because he is one great guy.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
#268
My kiddos were cracking me up today. They had fun things to say. They were sassing in cute outfits. They were just so dang cute! P told me, while I was pushing her on a swing, "This is amazing!". And while I was cooking, K was dancing her Irish jig to Flogging Molly. Love my chicks!
We just had an all around good day. They behaved, for the most part, while I shopped. We went for a walk and stopped at the park. P took a nap and K played in bed. We danced and played and chased bugs. We missed J. It felt like he wasn't really here today.
And I have to say, thank goodness we have WIC. I really don't know what we would do without that help, especially right now. I am not a fan of the government's policies and such. But I am very thankful for the assistance. That milk, eggs, and cheese help so much when things are normal. When J's pay is all wonky, that extra help is a lifesaver.
We just had an all around good day. They behaved, for the most part, while I shopped. We went for a walk and stopped at the park. P took a nap and K played in bed. We danced and played and chased bugs. We missed J. It felt like he wasn't really here today.
And I have to say, thank goodness we have WIC. I really don't know what we would do without that help, especially right now. I am not a fan of the government's policies and such. But I am very thankful for the assistance. That milk, eggs, and cheese help so much when things are normal. When J's pay is all wonky, that extra help is a lifesaver.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
#267
This roller coaster ride is killing me! The crazy twists and turns have got my neck hurting. Today was a good day. With some bad thrown in for flavor.
J and I are doing well. Not perfect, but pretty damn good, all things considered. Ugh, I am still irritated at Life for this one, and I probably will be for a while. But I have my hunny buns, and he rocks. And I think this has really gave me a new appreciation for him. But that is not even close to saying this was all for the best. It just means I have a kick ass husband.
The girls have been full of it the last few days. While we were traveling and in Cal, I was really lax with Operation No Thumbsucking. Really lax. And now, we are all paying for it. They are hiding in their room to suck their thumb. Really. Come on! So we will be working on that this week!
And, J and I talked some about our future, which is always a fun subject when your husband is in the Army. It's like trying to plan a vacation during hurricane season. You can think of sunshine and clear skies all you want, but you probably won't get it. Yep, that's the Army. But J might want to take the risks... It's not my place to discuss his decisions, though they are mine as well - we have that whole 'marriage' thing going for us. Anyway, I am hoping something comes of our conversation. For J.
J and I are doing well. Not perfect, but pretty damn good, all things considered. Ugh, I am still irritated at Life for this one, and I probably will be for a while. But I have my hunny buns, and he rocks. And I think this has really gave me a new appreciation for him. But that is not even close to saying this was all for the best. It just means I have a kick ass husband.
The girls have been full of it the last few days. While we were traveling and in Cal, I was really lax with Operation No Thumbsucking. Really lax. And now, we are all paying for it. They are hiding in their room to suck their thumb. Really. Come on! So we will be working on that this week!
And, J and I talked some about our future, which is always a fun subject when your husband is in the Army. It's like trying to plan a vacation during hurricane season. You can think of sunshine and clear skies all you want, but you probably won't get it. Yep, that's the Army. But J might want to take the risks... It's not my place to discuss his decisions, though they are mine as well - we have that whole 'marriage' thing going for us. Anyway, I am hoping something comes of our conversation. For J.
Monday, August 22, 2011
#266
I am tired. My head hurts. The margaritas didn't help.
Today was a day that I am glad to see end. It was a mad, hurtful, ugly day. J and I were mad at each other because of stupid things and other people. My feelings were hurt. And all I wanted was for my husband to give me a hug and tell me he loved me.
Which he did. And, really, that helped make today not so bad. Because no matter what the world throws at us, it's always Us against the world.
Take that.
Today was a day that I am glad to see end. It was a mad, hurtful, ugly day. J and I were mad at each other because of stupid things and other people. My feelings were hurt. And all I wanted was for my husband to give me a hug and tell me he loved me.
Which he did. And, really, that helped make today not so bad. Because no matter what the world throws at us, it's always Us against the world.
Take that.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
#259-#265
#259 Aug 15
I am exhausted. I really want to go to bed. But my day is not quite done. Almost!
This morning we woke up and got ready for a fun day. A crazy amount of people- 8 adults and 16 kids? Something like that- went to Six Flags. The girls loved it. We had a blast, rode a couple kiddie rides, got to see a couple animal shows, got a little pink.
P and K loved the killer whale show. They got pretty excited about it, even though they were exhausted. And they hecka loved the rides.
Before we left the house this morning, I tried out the old peanut butter/gum trick. On my grown sister. Dorky fell asleep with gum in her mouth, and of course it got matted in her hair. So 15 minutes before we left the house, I was rubbing pb in her minty hair! It hecka cracked me up. But it did work really well!
And for dinner I had InNOut!! Oh my goodness, it was so good! I love it so much and miss it when I am not here. It was yummy. Made my day.
#260 Aug 16
What is the deal with my damn phone?? I can't get online, can't check my mail, can't text a picture... All things that are not really important, I know. But I can't post my blog. And I pay for these services, damn it.
Other than that, today was a good day. I went to the mall with my dad and my girls, on a mission for some A's shirts. Found one. And I got cheese on a stick and cherry lemonade from Hotdog On A Stick!! Yum! Love that place!
My sister and I took our girls to feed the ducks. In my hometown, there is a little pond behind the library, and there are a gazillion ducks there. So we brought a loaf of bread. The girls had a blast feeding and running with the ducks. And that was pretty great to see- I remember doing that as a kid.
And, finally, I was able to see my nana. I was so happy to finally get to see her. She is still the same nana that I love so much. But I could tell she was tired and struggling to breathe. Not fun. I really hope I get to see her again...
And then I got to spend the evening with my crazy family, sitting around talking and acting fools. Man are they loud! But so very funny.
#261 Aug 17
Knowing today was my last real day in Cal sucked. I have loved having the chance to visit with my family and watching my daughters bond with their cousins.
We went to the park, went swimming, went out to eat. I was just a fun day with my siblings and their kids. Saying goodbye sucks, as always. But my girls don't get upset about it, so it's just a couple words. I get a little say, but that's ok. It just means my family hasn't completely lost it. Close, but no cigar!
I love how much the girls have loved all their cousins. They have jumped right in to the crazy brood and loved it. They are running around and screaming and jumping and acting like fools. And it is so awesome to see. It's also awesome to see their differences.
My girls are generally quiet, probably because J and me. Well, I am quieter now. But at home, it's just the four of us. So they are used to having each other, and that's it. Very little noise. Here? Yeah, it's too loud to think for normal people.
I have noticed it bothering K more than P. A couple times I have found K sitting alone in a quiet room, just relaxing. Or sitting with everyone else, with her fingers stuck in her ears. Those times, she has reminded me of her daddy, so much!
#262 Aug 18
I almost lost it this morning. We were supposed to leave at 9 am, but then we changed it to 10 am. And we didn't leave until noon. I was steamed! I cannot stand being late, even though it wasn't anything really time sensitive.
So yeah, we left California. Which is always sad for me. I never know when I will be back. There are so many things I miss about that place when I am gone.
I had a great time while I was there. Visiting with family, eating some amazing food... And lots and lots of noise! Geez my family is loud!
And then we drove. Through Cal, Nevada, and most of Utah. Fun times.
#263 Aug 19
Another late start. Why am I surprised?
Me and my girls were up and ready before we needed to be. We left an hour and a half after we said we would. Ah that just drives me insane! I will not be making this trip again.
J thinks it is funny. The Army has successfully brainwashed me into this crazy clock watching girl. I am ok with that, though.
My little chicks aren't doing so good. The last two nights they haven't been sleeping well. P is getting molars, I think. Not sure what is up with K, just know she isnt sleeping well. Which means I am hardly sleeping between the two of them. And then driving all day just makes my eyes burn more.
I am so ready to be home with my husband.
#264 Aug 20
You know that feeling you get when you walk in to your house after being gone a while? It's like the dimensions are not quite right or something. Is that just me?
Well, if it is, sorry you have to read about the craziness! I have always felt that way when I travel anywhere. It takes me a couple hours to get my house back in my head. I think it might be that my brain misses my home and builds it differently in my mind.
Coming home to a house that I have barely lived in made this little mind trick even worse. I felt like I needed to ask J if he had moved the furniture. I still think I should...
The girls were too excited to see their daddy. We got home around 10pm, but getting to see J and the boys was too much excitement. They couldn't stop talking to daddy. It was awesome.
#265 Aug 21
I have the best husband. Ever. In the history of husbands.
After two weeks of sleeping in the same bed as my two year old daughters (they fell out of the bed at least once a night, and kicked me in the face multiple times), waking up early, and driving over halfway across the country, my husband gave me the greatest gift ever. A good nights sleep, and he got up with the girls- he even remembered to shut the bedroom door so the girls wouldn't wake me up. I tell you, the man is a saint!
Even though sleeping in meant I missed church, I was ok with that. I have felt a nagging headache for the last week. And today it has let it's ugly face show. So I did some relaxing. I handed over my control freak reins and let my husband cook our meals.
I was great to hear him playing with his girls. They all missed each other so much. And to hear them squeal as he chased them around the house- it killed my heart but it was so sweet to hear.
I am exhausted. I really want to go to bed. But my day is not quite done. Almost!
This morning we woke up and got ready for a fun day. A crazy amount of people- 8 adults and 16 kids? Something like that- went to Six Flags. The girls loved it. We had a blast, rode a couple kiddie rides, got to see a couple animal shows, got a little pink.
P and K loved the killer whale show. They got pretty excited about it, even though they were exhausted. And they hecka loved the rides.
Before we left the house this morning, I tried out the old peanut butter/gum trick. On my grown sister. Dorky fell asleep with gum in her mouth, and of course it got matted in her hair. So 15 minutes before we left the house, I was rubbing pb in her minty hair! It hecka cracked me up. But it did work really well!
And for dinner I had InNOut!! Oh my goodness, it was so good! I love it so much and miss it when I am not here. It was yummy. Made my day.
#260 Aug 16
What is the deal with my damn phone?? I can't get online, can't check my mail, can't text a picture... All things that are not really important, I know. But I can't post my blog. And I pay for these services, damn it.
Other than that, today was a good day. I went to the mall with my dad and my girls, on a mission for some A's shirts. Found one. And I got cheese on a stick and cherry lemonade from Hotdog On A Stick!! Yum! Love that place!
My sister and I took our girls to feed the ducks. In my hometown, there is a little pond behind the library, and there are a gazillion ducks there. So we brought a loaf of bread. The girls had a blast feeding and running with the ducks. And that was pretty great to see- I remember doing that as a kid.
And, finally, I was able to see my nana. I was so happy to finally get to see her. She is still the same nana that I love so much. But I could tell she was tired and struggling to breathe. Not fun. I really hope I get to see her again...
And then I got to spend the evening with my crazy family, sitting around talking and acting fools. Man are they loud! But so very funny.
#261 Aug 17
Knowing today was my last real day in Cal sucked. I have loved having the chance to visit with my family and watching my daughters bond with their cousins.
We went to the park, went swimming, went out to eat. I was just a fun day with my siblings and their kids. Saying goodbye sucks, as always. But my girls don't get upset about it, so it's just a couple words. I get a little say, but that's ok. It just means my family hasn't completely lost it. Close, but no cigar!
I love how much the girls have loved all their cousins. They have jumped right in to the crazy brood and loved it. They are running around and screaming and jumping and acting like fools. And it is so awesome to see. It's also awesome to see their differences.
My girls are generally quiet, probably because J and me. Well, I am quieter now. But at home, it's just the four of us. So they are used to having each other, and that's it. Very little noise. Here? Yeah, it's too loud to think for normal people.
I have noticed it bothering K more than P. A couple times I have found K sitting alone in a quiet room, just relaxing. Or sitting with everyone else, with her fingers stuck in her ears. Those times, she has reminded me of her daddy, so much!
#262 Aug 18
I almost lost it this morning. We were supposed to leave at 9 am, but then we changed it to 10 am. And we didn't leave until noon. I was steamed! I cannot stand being late, even though it wasn't anything really time sensitive.
So yeah, we left California. Which is always sad for me. I never know when I will be back. There are so many things I miss about that place when I am gone.
I had a great time while I was there. Visiting with family, eating some amazing food... And lots and lots of noise! Geez my family is loud!
And then we drove. Through Cal, Nevada, and most of Utah. Fun times.
#263 Aug 19
Another late start. Why am I surprised?
Me and my girls were up and ready before we needed to be. We left an hour and a half after we said we would. Ah that just drives me insane! I will not be making this trip again.
J thinks it is funny. The Army has successfully brainwashed me into this crazy clock watching girl. I am ok with that, though.
My little chicks aren't doing so good. The last two nights they haven't been sleeping well. P is getting molars, I think. Not sure what is up with K, just know she isnt sleeping well. Which means I am hardly sleeping between the two of them. And then driving all day just makes my eyes burn more.
I am so ready to be home with my husband.
#264 Aug 20
You know that feeling you get when you walk in to your house after being gone a while? It's like the dimensions are not quite right or something. Is that just me?
Well, if it is, sorry you have to read about the craziness! I have always felt that way when I travel anywhere. It takes me a couple hours to get my house back in my head. I think it might be that my brain misses my home and builds it differently in my mind.
Coming home to a house that I have barely lived in made this little mind trick even worse. I felt like I needed to ask J if he had moved the furniture. I still think I should...
The girls were too excited to see their daddy. We got home around 10pm, but getting to see J and the boys was too much excitement. They couldn't stop talking to daddy. It was awesome.
#265 Aug 21
I have the best husband. Ever. In the history of husbands.
After two weeks of sleeping in the same bed as my two year old daughters (they fell out of the bed at least once a night, and kicked me in the face multiple times), waking up early, and driving over halfway across the country, my husband gave me the greatest gift ever. A good nights sleep, and he got up with the girls- he even remembered to shut the bedroom door so the girls wouldn't wake me up. I tell you, the man is a saint!
Even though sleeping in meant I missed church, I was ok with that. I have felt a nagging headache for the last week. And today it has let it's ugly face show. So I did some relaxing. I handed over my control freak reins and let my husband cook our meals.
I was great to hear him playing with his girls. They all missed each other so much. And to hear them squeal as he chased them around the house- it killed my heart but it was so sweet to hear.
Sunday, August 14, 2011
#258
I had so much fun today!
The girls, my dad and I went to see my cousins and aunt and uncle. I had hecka fun visiting with them. I just love them to pieces and I wish I could see the more often.
The girls had a blast and loved everyone there. They had fun visiting and playing. They hecka loved the horsey, P was even brushing it. and my aunt loved the girls sassiness. It kind of runs in our family.
The girls, my dad and I went to see my cousins and aunt and uncle. I had hecka fun visiting with them. I just love them to pieces and I wish I could see the more often.
The girls had a blast and loved everyone there. They had fun visiting and playing. They hecka loved the horsey, P was even brushing it. and my aunt loved the girls sassiness. It kind of runs in our family.
#257
You know what sucks about being the sibling that doesn't live in your hometown? The same thing that sucks about being the cousin that doesn't lie in your hometown.
You are the one that is left out.
"Remember when that happened?" Nope, I wasn't there. "Remember that guy she dated?" Nope, didn't meet him.
Ugh it sucks. Because, believe it or not, everyone continues to live their lives even if I am not around. Just like I live my life without them around. The sucky thing is realizing how much I miss.
With all that said, today was a good day. In the morning we went and got some pictures taken. My Ma's 11 grandkids. It was super cute! I also got one of my girls that turned out pretty cute. I can't wait to get them.
And this afternoon my sister had a barbecue at her house. My Ma, her five kids, their families, one aunt and a couple cousins. We all had fun just chilling and watching the kids play. It was fun.
I wish J had been here. It would have been nice to have all of us together. And I miss my hunny.
You are the one that is left out.
"Remember when that happened?" Nope, I wasn't there. "Remember that guy she dated?" Nope, didn't meet him.
Ugh it sucks. Because, believe it or not, everyone continues to live their lives even if I am not around. Just like I live my life without them around. The sucky thing is realizing how much I miss.
With all that said, today was a good day. In the morning we went and got some pictures taken. My Ma's 11 grandkids. It was super cute! I also got one of my girls that turned out pretty cute. I can't wait to get them.
And this afternoon my sister had a barbecue at her house. My Ma, her five kids, their families, one aunt and a couple cousins. We all had fun just chilling and watching the kids play. It was fun.
I wish J had been here. It would have been nice to have all of us together. And I miss my hunny.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
#256
Today was hecka fun.
We went to see the new Smurfs movie! It was so cute; I loved it. The girls thought it was great. There was four adults and eleven kids though, so it was crazy. Most things are with this family.
Afterwards we ran in to old navy and got the kids new shirt, because tomorrow we are going to get a picture with all of my Ma's grandkids. It should be fun!
This evening we went and watched the guys play softball. My brother, my brothers in law, and a couple family friends are all on a softball team together. They are cute, huh? So we got to watch them play. It was so fun, the girls had a blast and they got a kick out of running the bases after the game was over.
And I got a kick out of stopping at Coldstone when the game was over. Yum! I haven't ate there in forever. And hey, guess what! I totally know what Coldstone is, people. I may have been gone for a while, but I did grow up in Cal. Come on. (people keep acting like I don't know anything around here)
That ice cream did make me miss Germany though. Not because they are similar- they are not! But because that is one of the first times I have had ice cream since we moved back to the states. I miss my German eis, especially my melon eis.
We went to see the new Smurfs movie! It was so cute; I loved it. The girls thought it was great. There was four adults and eleven kids though, so it was crazy. Most things are with this family.
Afterwards we ran in to old navy and got the kids new shirt, because tomorrow we are going to get a picture with all of my Ma's grandkids. It should be fun!
This evening we went and watched the guys play softball. My brother, my brothers in law, and a couple family friends are all on a softball team together. They are cute, huh? So we got to watch them play. It was so fun, the girls had a blast and they got a kick out of running the bases after the game was over.
And I got a kick out of stopping at Coldstone when the game was over. Yum! I haven't ate there in forever. And hey, guess what! I totally know what Coldstone is, people. I may have been gone for a while, but I did grow up in Cal. Come on. (people keep acting like I don't know anything around here)
That ice cream did make me miss Germany though. Not because they are similar- they are not! But because that is one of the first times I have had ice cream since we moved back to the states. I miss my German eis, especially my melon eis.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
#255
I don't want to do this tonight.
I had a good day. I got to chill with my crazy family. My girls had fun. Lunch and dinner were amazing.
The girls were sassy and not on their best behavior. Like I said with my husband's family was visiting, I think it has to do with the people around. Because let's face it, if you are home with mommy and daddy you act different than when you are with other people. And here there are a lot of other people.
But today was just a good day in general. And I don't want to take the time to talk about it.
Personally, I accomplished nothing but eating at an old hangout that is one of the greatest places in this crazy town.
I had a good day. I got to chill with my crazy family. My girls had fun. Lunch and dinner were amazing.
The girls were sassy and not on their best behavior. Like I said with my husband's family was visiting, I think it has to do with the people around. Because let's face it, if you are home with mommy and daddy you act different than when you are with other people. And here there are a lot of other people.
But today was just a good day in general. And I don't want to take the time to talk about it.
Personally, I accomplished nothing but eating at an old hangout that is one of the greatest places in this crazy town.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
#251-#254
I swear I am not dead. I didn't fall off the face of the planet. A large wild animal did not consume me. The last few days have just been one crazy day after another. So I am going to be so cometely lazy and combine a few days.
#251 (Sunday)
At about 9am, we (me and my girls, Ma, my brother, his wife, and their three kids) started our journey West. Yes, it is as crazy as you are imagining.
We headed north past KC. And then the route we planned was closes because of flooding. So we took a different road. Which was also closed. So we turned around, headed back south, and took another road. It took us an extra 1.5 hours, or possibly more. I was perturbed. Stupid Missouri river flooding and messing up my plans.
Then I saw the houses, barns, and fields completely underwater. Who cares if my long car ride was made longer. There were people that no longer had houses.
Other that that, the drive was just a drive. MO, a little corner of KS, a crazy long stretch of Nebraska. We drove through the night, and into Wyoming.
#252 (Monday)
I thought driving through the night was a stellar idea. And I totally stand by that decision. I was totally awake to drive. My girls were having issues sleeping because they didn't feel good. So why would I stop? Wasn't going to get sleep anyway!
But around 9am, my family couldn't stay awake. So we stopped and got a room in Utah. Instead of crashing after 28ish hours without sleep, I took the girls to the hotel pool. They had been in the car for a long time, so I wanted them to burn energy.
And my stomach, which was feeling funky already, was not thrilled about the motion of the swimming pool. I was getting so sick that I had to take us back to our room. And then we crashed.
Only to wake up an hour later because my daughter was getting her vomit on. Everywhere. Like, gross oh my goodness eeweeww.
And then it just continued. P and I were hecka sick for hecka long. Vomiting, fever, chills, body aches. The fun was really never ending.
#253 (Tuesday)
We left our hotel in Utah at 2am and continued West to the greatest state ever. The drive was going fine, until about 4 hours from my hometown. That was when Ma got a flat. Thankfully it started deflating right before we stopped for gas. And the repair only took about an hour.
So we finally got to my hometown and my family. It's was pretty great. My four siblings and all of our kids in one house. It was great. The only thing missing was my hunny buns.
I hecka miss him.
#254 (Wednesday)
I think the best thing about being in NorCal is seeing my family. I love it. Because my family is pretty awesome.
They are all kinds of crazy and loud and opinionated and smart ass-y and lovey. They will probably be killing me in a couple days! But I love them and their craziness.
The girls are so loving all their cousins and all the fun things they get to do. Their oldest cousin is starting high school in a few days, their youngest cousin is 6 weeks old. 9 cousins, plus my cousins kids... Holy cow that is too many kids! And they all had so much fun.
And, because of all this fun stuff, I am beyond tired.
#251 (Sunday)
At about 9am, we (me and my girls, Ma, my brother, his wife, and their three kids) started our journey West. Yes, it is as crazy as you are imagining.
We headed north past KC. And then the route we planned was closes because of flooding. So we took a different road. Which was also closed. So we turned around, headed back south, and took another road. It took us an extra 1.5 hours, or possibly more. I was perturbed. Stupid Missouri river flooding and messing up my plans.
Then I saw the houses, barns, and fields completely underwater. Who cares if my long car ride was made longer. There were people that no longer had houses.
Other that that, the drive was just a drive. MO, a little corner of KS, a crazy long stretch of Nebraska. We drove through the night, and into Wyoming.
#252 (Monday)
I thought driving through the night was a stellar idea. And I totally stand by that decision. I was totally awake to drive. My girls were having issues sleeping because they didn't feel good. So why would I stop? Wasn't going to get sleep anyway!
But around 9am, my family couldn't stay awake. So we stopped and got a room in Utah. Instead of crashing after 28ish hours without sleep, I took the girls to the hotel pool. They had been in the car for a long time, so I wanted them to burn energy.
And my stomach, which was feeling funky already, was not thrilled about the motion of the swimming pool. I was getting so sick that I had to take us back to our room. And then we crashed.
Only to wake up an hour later because my daughter was getting her vomit on. Everywhere. Like, gross oh my goodness eeweeww.
And then it just continued. P and I were hecka sick for hecka long. Vomiting, fever, chills, body aches. The fun was really never ending.
#253 (Tuesday)
We left our hotel in Utah at 2am and continued West to the greatest state ever. The drive was going fine, until about 4 hours from my hometown. That was when Ma got a flat. Thankfully it started deflating right before we stopped for gas. And the repair only took about an hour.
So we finally got to my hometown and my family. It's was pretty great. My four siblings and all of our kids in one house. It was great. The only thing missing was my hunny buns.
I hecka miss him.
#254 (Wednesday)
I think the best thing about being in NorCal is seeing my family. I love it. Because my family is pretty awesome.
They are all kinds of crazy and loud and opinionated and smart ass-y and lovey. They will probably be killing me in a couple days! But I love them and their craziness.
The girls are so loving all their cousins and all the fun things they get to do. Their oldest cousin is starting high school in a few days, their youngest cousin is 6 weeks old. 9 cousins, plus my cousins kids... Holy cow that is too many kids! And they all had so much fun.
And, because of all this fun stuff, I am beyond tired.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
#250
I thought about writing today. But the words didn't seem to make any sense.
I ate cake for my nephews birthday party.
I loved on my baby girls and I missed my husband.
My heart broke for the service members that lost their lives in a helicopter that was shot down. 31, last I heard. And for their families who are left to pick up the pieces. And out country, because we have hardened our hearts to the loss of life.
I ate cake for my nephews birthday party.
I loved on my baby girls and I missed my husband.
My heart broke for the service members that lost their lives in a helicopter that was shot down. 31, last I heard. And for their families who are left to pick up the pieces. And out country, because we have hardened our hearts to the loss of life.
Saturday, August 6, 2011
#249
I did it again. Drove to Missouri, that is.
My nephew's birthday party is tomorrow. And on Sunday we will be driving for-ev-er, all the way to California.
I have gone back and forth on the idea of this trip. I want to go to Cal to see my family. But traveling there is expensive and a long ass drive. But I want to see my family.
The deciding factor was J. He usually is. He told me to go so I can see everyone, especially Nana. He knows how much she means to me, and how sick she is. So he told me to stop acting like I wasn't going to go.
I wish he could have gone with us. Maybe next time.
The only real exciting thing about today was the crazy downpour while I was driving through StL. Really, it was so bad that I was going 10-15 mph on the interstate. And I was still struggling to see! Pure craziness.
My nephew's birthday party is tomorrow. And on Sunday we will be driving for-ev-er, all the way to California.
I have gone back and forth on the idea of this trip. I want to go to Cal to see my family. But traveling there is expensive and a long ass drive. But I want to see my family.
The deciding factor was J. He usually is. He told me to go so I can see everyone, especially Nana. He knows how much she means to me, and how sick she is. So he told me to stop acting like I wasn't going to go.
I wish he could have gone with us. Maybe next time.
The only real exciting thing about today was the crazy downpour while I was driving through StL. Really, it was so bad that I was going 10-15 mph on the interstate. And I was still struggling to see! Pure craziness.
Thursday, August 4, 2011
#248
Man I feel like poo. I think it is this new medicine. Which blows. Meds are supposed to make you feel better, not worse. Right?!
So here's the question. Deal with migraines or the side effects of this med? Which, to date include: light headedness, diarrhea, dizziness, nausea, muscle cramps, chest pain... Oh, and the old head isn't drastically better, so I still have a headache.
I go back to the Neuro guy at the end of the month. So I guess I will just continue to try this med. Maybe it just needs some time to get my body straightened out. Like boot camp!
2 good things before I go. P and K got a new movie today. Kung Fu Panda!! The first one. They were too excited. They LOVE it. Yay!
And, just to give everyone a laugh. At my expense... Peppers are hot. Did you know that? Well, they are. And when you touch them and cut them and such, that hotness gets on your hands. Mmhmm. And when you rub your eye, that hotness seeps in and burns like a demon on a mission. Really, it does!!!
I knew all this before tonight. But I wasn't thinking, totally forgot about the peppers, and my eye itched. Man did that combo suck! J and the girls got a good laugh, though.
And I think my eye is still burning!
So here's the question. Deal with migraines or the side effects of this med? Which, to date include: light headedness, diarrhea, dizziness, nausea, muscle cramps, chest pain... Oh, and the old head isn't drastically better, so I still have a headache.
I go back to the Neuro guy at the end of the month. So I guess I will just continue to try this med. Maybe it just needs some time to get my body straightened out. Like boot camp!
2 good things before I go. P and K got a new movie today. Kung Fu Panda!! The first one. They were too excited. They LOVE it. Yay!
And, just to give everyone a laugh. At my expense... Peppers are hot. Did you know that? Well, they are. And when you touch them and cut them and such, that hotness gets on your hands. Mmhmm. And when you rub your eye, that hotness seeps in and burns like a demon on a mission. Really, it does!!!
I knew all this before tonight. But I wasn't thinking, totally forgot about the peppers, and my eye itched. Man did that combo suck! J and the girls got a good laugh, though.
And I think my eye is still burning!
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
#247
Here is the deal. I have an amazing husband. He loves me for me. I love him more than you will never understand.
I probably don't deserve him. I know a few people think that as well. But here's the thing. It doesn't matter how we feel. J picked me. And not just when he was 20 and horny. Every morning, he makes the choice to stay with me. And every night he comes home to me. He loves me.
And that is good enough for me.
WE have two beautiful daughters. They are smart and sassy. They love Elmo, squirrels, and Daddy. They think I am pretty cool too.
Again, good enough for me.
My past wasn't sunshine and roses. If it had been, I wouldn't be the person I am. And you know, that person is pretty great.
So, please, continue to think whatever you want about me. I am evil, awesome, worthless, funny, pathetic, caring, and so many other things that you will never know.
My friends lift me up when I fall. my critics make me stand up a little straighter. My faith keeps me strong. And the love of my husband and daughters is the thing I cherish most.
I am so lucky, so blessed, to have love in my life.
That is all. Good night.
I probably don't deserve him. I know a few people think that as well. But here's the thing. It doesn't matter how we feel. J picked me. And not just when he was 20 and horny. Every morning, he makes the choice to stay with me. And every night he comes home to me. He loves me.
And that is good enough for me.
WE have two beautiful daughters. They are smart and sassy. They love Elmo, squirrels, and Daddy. They think I am pretty cool too.
Again, good enough for me.
My past wasn't sunshine and roses. If it had been, I wouldn't be the person I am. And you know, that person is pretty great.
So, please, continue to think whatever you want about me. I am evil, awesome, worthless, funny, pathetic, caring, and so many other things that you will never know.
My friends lift me up when I fall. my critics make me stand up a little straighter. My faith keeps me strong. And the love of my husband and daughters is the thing I cherish most.
I am so lucky, so blessed, to have love in my life.
That is all. Good night.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
#246
I have a killer headache. Fever, chills, upset stomach. A little chest pain tied in for fun. I want to go to sleep and wake up feeling better. Mmkay?
But before I do, I just want to say thanks to all of you. 246 posts about my every day life and you guys read them. Some of you even gave me some great feedback. I appreciate it so much. You all deal with my shortcomings and offer me advise on making myself a better person. I can't thank you enough.
Bless your hearts!
But before I do, I just want to say thanks to all of you. 246 posts about my every day life and you guys read them. Some of you even gave me some great feedback. I appreciate it so much. You all deal with my shortcomings and offer me advise on making myself a better person. I can't thank you enough.
Bless your hearts!
Monday, August 1, 2011
#245
Today was a day.
J's family went home this morning. It was nice to feel like it was my home again. But then J reminded me I am leaving in a couple days. So I just got exhausted all over again.
I took the girls to the splash park. Partly because I thought they needed to get out if the house and have some fun, partly because I wanted to get out of the house. And then P sealed our fates by telling me "I need to go to the splash park because I need to make new friends." isn't she absolutely adorable?
Since school started here today, the park was so much calmed! Nice. I even got a chance to talk to another mom. Who was from NorCal. Who has two little girls.
But as we were talking, I realized I have no desire to make new friends. I want friends, but I don't want to go through the process of 'making' them. Because if it is a friendship worth having, it isn't going to annoy me. Right? M and G are absolutely amazing, and better friends than I deserve. And I never once felt like I was 'making' any type of relationship with them. I sort of felt like we were always friends. So I am good in the friends dept for now.
And I had another revelation. I do not know politics. But I do know what is right and wrong. And our government is wrong. The handful of people we have elected to run our country are running it straight into Hell. And, the lemmings that call theirselves citizens and trotting along behind the 'leaders'.
I don't want to be a lemming. I want the world to know I am pissed at the crap I have to deal with. I want the elected officials to kiss my ass. I want the taxation without representation to stop. I want my freedoms that have been fought for to remain in place. And I want my country back.
Call me a rebel, because that is what my ancestors were. And they had the right idea. If our government doesn't care about their jobs or their country any more, they have no right pretending to care about it. Remember what happened the last time someone tried to control this crazy land?
Taxes didn't keep us down then- they just provided kindling for the fire.
J's family went home this morning. It was nice to feel like it was my home again. But then J reminded me I am leaving in a couple days. So I just got exhausted all over again.
I took the girls to the splash park. Partly because I thought they needed to get out if the house and have some fun, partly because I wanted to get out of the house. And then P sealed our fates by telling me "I need to go to the splash park because I need to make new friends." isn't she absolutely adorable?
Since school started here today, the park was so much calmed! Nice. I even got a chance to talk to another mom. Who was from NorCal. Who has two little girls.
But as we were talking, I realized I have no desire to make new friends. I want friends, but I don't want to go through the process of 'making' them. Because if it is a friendship worth having, it isn't going to annoy me. Right? M and G are absolutely amazing, and better friends than I deserve. And I never once felt like I was 'making' any type of relationship with them. I sort of felt like we were always friends. So I am good in the friends dept for now.
And I had another revelation. I do not know politics. But I do know what is right and wrong. And our government is wrong. The handful of people we have elected to run our country are running it straight into Hell. And, the lemmings that call theirselves citizens and trotting along behind the 'leaders'.
I don't want to be a lemming. I want the world to know I am pissed at the crap I have to deal with. I want the elected officials to kiss my ass. I want the taxation without representation to stop. I want my freedoms that have been fought for to remain in place. And I want my country back.
Call me a rebel, because that is what my ancestors were. And they had the right idea. If our government doesn't care about their jobs or their country any more, they have no right pretending to care about it. Remember what happened the last time someone tried to control this crazy land?
Taxes didn't keep us down then- they just provided kindling for the fire.
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