Samhain was the Celtic feast of the new year. It signaled the end of the harvest and the start of winter. Sundown on October 31st was the start of this feast. On this night, the boundary between the worlds was believed to get a little fuzzy.
Over the years, this feast day transformed into what we know today, with help from Catholics, Americans, and who knows what else.
Pumpkin carving evolved from carving turnips into lanterns to light the way for souls. Masks were worn to hide your true identity from ill spirits. Catholic children would knock on your door and offer to pray for the souls of your loved ones; in return they were given sweets.
This holiday was not about devil worship or anything remotely bad. It was originally about thanking the gods for a good crop, praying for a calm winter, taking a break from the harsh life, and honoring the world as it was.
And what is wrong with having a night to pretend?!
My girls had a blast dressing up as princesses and getting candy and compliments. This was their first real trick or treating experience. Their first 2 halloweens were in Germany and we went to parties instead of going door to door. And on their first time, they did great and has a blast. They got scared a couple times near the beginning of the night. But after reassurances from Mommy and each other that it was all pretend, they loved it all. It was clear to me how young they are, because once their buckets started to get heavy they asked to go home. Rookies!
Once we for home they were too excited to tell Daddy about everything they did and saw. They ate a couple pieces of candy. And were asleep as soon as we turned off their light! J was a little sad he wasn't able to go, but after his first day back to work and some aches, he stayed home to recuperate.
It was a great day. I am so happy the girls had fun. They were the prettiest and nicest princesses in the neighborhood.
Monday, October 31, 2011
Sunday, October 30, 2011
#335
I am bummed with myself. I was planning to write about Halloween and it's roots in Samhain. Super fun Celtic history. But the girls last few hours of awake time were frustrating. So after their bedtime, I zoned out and read about James Garfield.
Tomorrow. Then is when you will get a great history lesson.
But, while we are talking about history. I told J earlier that I want to go back to school. Because I am a nerd and love to learn. And because I had always assumed that I would go to college and get a degree. And I am still having trouble giving up that dream.
I would love to study history. American history. To learn as much as possible about my country's beginnings. But what would I do with that. Teach? I am not a good teacher. And I do not want to work and have someone else watch my daughters.
So why go back to school? For a piece of paper? I could go to the library and bookstore and educate myself on the things I want to learn. And when my daughters are in school, I can get a lowly time filler job that allows me to be there for them.
The thought of college still tempts me though.
But I read my book about our 20th president and enjoyed it. Immensely. This guy was a crazy awesome guy. He didn't have high political aspirations, and actually was mad about his nomination to presidency. But he had grace and accepted what was asked of him.
About political aspirations, he said he would not promote himself and petition for a higher position. He also said he would not commit to another man and his ideals. His approach to running for office was such an amazing contrast to the things we see today.
Oh, to be alive in a time when men leading our country had integrity!
Tomorrow. Then is when you will get a great history lesson.
But, while we are talking about history. I told J earlier that I want to go back to school. Because I am a nerd and love to learn. And because I had always assumed that I would go to college and get a degree. And I am still having trouble giving up that dream.
I would love to study history. American history. To learn as much as possible about my country's beginnings. But what would I do with that. Teach? I am not a good teacher. And I do not want to work and have someone else watch my daughters.
So why go back to school? For a piece of paper? I could go to the library and bookstore and educate myself on the things I want to learn. And when my daughters are in school, I can get a lowly time filler job that allows me to be there for them.
The thought of college still tempts me though.
But I read my book about our 20th president and enjoyed it. Immensely. This guy was a crazy awesome guy. He didn't have high political aspirations, and actually was mad about his nomination to presidency. But he had grace and accepted what was asked of him.
About political aspirations, he said he would not promote himself and petition for a higher position. He also said he would not commit to another man and his ideals. His approach to running for office was such an amazing contrast to the things we see today.
Oh, to be alive in a time when men leading our country had integrity!
Saturday, October 29, 2011
#334
Last night, I was freezing. I was so cold I made Ozzy go to bed with me and made him lay under the covers! Yep, I did. And I am not a fan of him in my bed. I have been in a mild stage of freezing my ass off for a few days now. Though I am not sure why. It's not like my heater doesn't work.
Because I wanted to be lazy and lay on the couch with a blanket today, that is about what we did. The girls had fun playing and running around the house like fools. J did a lot of nothing. He is doing really well but has some pain.
This evening the girls and I went to Mass. I am not really a fan of Saturday evening Masses. If I go on Saturday, I am probably not going to go on Sunday. But if I don't go on Sunday, I feel weird. Oh, the conundrums!
We went though, to support MCCW. We were supposed to help out with the service and have food and such for afterwards. But, due to some poor planning, that didn't really happen. So instead, we showed up to Mass, which is always a beautiful thing. Afterwards, we had a little something to eat and went home. There really wasn't much of an MCCW push or anything like that.
Tonight, after Crazy and Crazy went to bed, I started reading a new book. "Destiny of the Republic" about President Garfield. So far, I like it. But it totally points out my horrible education.
I know next to nothing about my presidents. Which is sad. Come on, our country has been around for little over two hundred years and has had 44 presidents. That is not an insane amount of people to educate our children about. Maybe if we teach our children more about our country, pride in our country would be more prevalent. Just a thought.
Because I wanted to be lazy and lay on the couch with a blanket today, that is about what we did. The girls had fun playing and running around the house like fools. J did a lot of nothing. He is doing really well but has some pain.
This evening the girls and I went to Mass. I am not really a fan of Saturday evening Masses. If I go on Saturday, I am probably not going to go on Sunday. But if I don't go on Sunday, I feel weird. Oh, the conundrums!
We went though, to support MCCW. We were supposed to help out with the service and have food and such for afterwards. But, due to some poor planning, that didn't really happen. So instead, we showed up to Mass, which is always a beautiful thing. Afterwards, we had a little something to eat and went home. There really wasn't much of an MCCW push or anything like that.
Tonight, after Crazy and Crazy went to bed, I started reading a new book. "Destiny of the Republic" about President Garfield. So far, I like it. But it totally points out my horrible education.
I know next to nothing about my presidents. Which is sad. Come on, our country has been around for little over two hundred years and has had 44 presidents. That is not an insane amount of people to educate our children about. Maybe if we teach our children more about our country, pride in our country would be more prevalent. Just a thought.
Friday, October 28, 2011
#333
Oh. 333. Does that mean something?? Eh, who cares!
Some days, I realize how old I am. Like today. It is Friday night, I have been in my sweats since 6:30 and fighting sleep since 8. Yep, no life.
But I am totally ok with that.
This morning, J had a little snippety operation. He is doing good, thanks to the drugs and frozen peas! So he is taking it easy. You know, falling asleep in the middle of reading 'Green Eggs and Ham' and not moving.
While he was doing his thing, the chicks and I were at MCCW. Which I am so torn about. I really like the ladies there. Well, most of them! I love having the opportunity to talk with like minded ladies while my daughters are playing with kids. But I do not like the fact that we have been meeting since the beginning of September and today was the first time we talked about our book. And we only talked about it for like 20 minutes! If that!
It drives me crazy. If we are going to study and such, then let's freaking study. If we are going to... Wow, I have no idea what we do. Talk? Not really, because there is always a feeling of needing to do something else. Listen to different priests talk? Even though there are a few that are crazy hard to understand. I have no idea. I am just a little perturbed.
Oh, I went to the grocery store this afternoon. Big mistake! I was starving. I think I bought a ton of crap, but I am scared to actually look in my kitchen! Mmm orange soda. And candy corn. Spiced cider- the fake powdery kind! Yeah, it was a junky, chemical filled shopping cart. That I will indulge in tomorrow!
Some days, I realize how old I am. Like today. It is Friday night, I have been in my sweats since 6:30 and fighting sleep since 8. Yep, no life.
But I am totally ok with that.
This morning, J had a little snippety operation. He is doing good, thanks to the drugs and frozen peas! So he is taking it easy. You know, falling asleep in the middle of reading 'Green Eggs and Ham' and not moving.
While he was doing his thing, the chicks and I were at MCCW. Which I am so torn about. I really like the ladies there. Well, most of them! I love having the opportunity to talk with like minded ladies while my daughters are playing with kids. But I do not like the fact that we have been meeting since the beginning of September and today was the first time we talked about our book. And we only talked about it for like 20 minutes! If that!
It drives me crazy. If we are going to study and such, then let's freaking study. If we are going to... Wow, I have no idea what we do. Talk? Not really, because there is always a feeling of needing to do something else. Listen to different priests talk? Even though there are a few that are crazy hard to understand. I have no idea. I am just a little perturbed.
Oh, I went to the grocery store this afternoon. Big mistake! I was starving. I think I bought a ton of crap, but I am scared to actually look in my kitchen! Mmm orange soda. And candy corn. Spiced cider- the fake powdery kind! Yeah, it was a junky, chemical filled shopping cart. That I will indulge in tomorrow!
Thursday, October 27, 2011
#332
Sometimes I think I should make my daughters shirts that say "my mom doesn't beat me." Tomorrow K might need that shirt. Who is surprised? K fell out of bed a little bit ago. She has a nasty bruise on her chin and her chin and lips are swollen. Tomorrow will be fun!
Today was great. This morning the chicks and I chilled on the couch with the Jungle Book. Gotta love the Bear Necessities. Then we had friends over and we had a blast. I am super digging having great people to hang with.
This evening I watched Good Will Hunting. I freaking love that movie. I have seen it way too many times, and cannot really say what it is about the story that made me fall in love with it when I was about 14. But fall I did, my friends. It is a killer movie, and as an added bonus it has great lines to quote. I want to tear someone up, then say 'you're up, Chief.' Just to say it! Ah!
I talked to my best friend, twice today. For about five seconds total! She is crazy busy, and possibly Superwoman. But I love her, superpowers and all. And I super wish I could be with her in that crazy lone star state.
Today was great. This morning the chicks and I chilled on the couch with the Jungle Book. Gotta love the Bear Necessities. Then we had friends over and we had a blast. I am super digging having great people to hang with.
This evening I watched Good Will Hunting. I freaking love that movie. I have seen it way too many times, and cannot really say what it is about the story that made me fall in love with it when I was about 14. But fall I did, my friends. It is a killer movie, and as an added bonus it has great lines to quote. I want to tear someone up, then say 'you're up, Chief.' Just to say it! Ah!
I talked to my best friend, twice today. For about five seconds total! She is crazy busy, and possibly Superwoman. But I love her, superpowers and all. And I super wish I could be with her in that crazy lone star state.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
#331
If our Founding Fathers could see America now, what would they say?
This whole Occupy crap is annoying me. Granted, I do not know exactly what their deal is. I am not going take the time to research their platform or ideals. But, from the crap I see on the news, it sounds stupid to me. Please, educate me if I am wrong.
But really, you want to complain to me about your debt? No one made you take out a loan for an overpriced education. When I graduated high school, I had the brains to attend college; I lacked the funds to attend college. I did not want to owe thousands of dollars when I was 22, so I sidestepped that dream. You made the choice to take out a loan. Don't blame the world for your mistake.
You have a problem with people that have insane amounts of money? Too bad! Honest hard work, a rich granddaddy, or sheer dumb luck- it doesn't matter hoe they got it, the money is theirs. They do not owe you a handout. Hell, they already pay more in US taxes than you will ever earn. They shouldn't have to pay for your lack of financial planning.
The world owes you nothing. Yeah, our economy is in the gutter. Yes, the job market sucks. But living in a tent in a public area, using the government's electricity and water, doesn't accomplish much. You want to see changes?
"Be the change you wish to see in the world."
Or join the military. College assistance, steady paycheck, and the chance to actually make a difference. Plus, a haircut.
Boom. Problem solved.
What do I know about the world and it's troubles? I am just a housewife, right? Yep, I am. Just a housewife, with no higher education. But I kind of make it a habit to not walk through life with blinders. I read a lot to educate myself. I am not some amazing studied person. But I am not the village idiot, either.
P.S. I had a really good day hanging with A. She rocks. The chicks had a blast hanging with friends. So much fun that they didn't want to take a nap and were so cranky we put them to bed a half hour early. But it was still a good day.
This whole Occupy crap is annoying me. Granted, I do not know exactly what their deal is. I am not going take the time to research their platform or ideals. But, from the crap I see on the news, it sounds stupid to me. Please, educate me if I am wrong.
But really, you want to complain to me about your debt? No one made you take out a loan for an overpriced education. When I graduated high school, I had the brains to attend college; I lacked the funds to attend college. I did not want to owe thousands of dollars when I was 22, so I sidestepped that dream. You made the choice to take out a loan. Don't blame the world for your mistake.
You have a problem with people that have insane amounts of money? Too bad! Honest hard work, a rich granddaddy, or sheer dumb luck- it doesn't matter hoe they got it, the money is theirs. They do not owe you a handout. Hell, they already pay more in US taxes than you will ever earn. They shouldn't have to pay for your lack of financial planning.
The world owes you nothing. Yeah, our economy is in the gutter. Yes, the job market sucks. But living in a tent in a public area, using the government's electricity and water, doesn't accomplish much. You want to see changes?
"Be the change you wish to see in the world."
Or join the military. College assistance, steady paycheck, and the chance to actually make a difference. Plus, a haircut.
Boom. Problem solved.
What do I know about the world and it's troubles? I am just a housewife, right? Yep, I am. Just a housewife, with no higher education. But I kind of make it a habit to not walk through life with blinders. I read a lot to educate myself. I am not some amazing studied person. But I am not the village idiot, either.
P.S. I had a really good day hanging with A. She rocks. The chicks had a blast hanging with friends. So much fun that they didn't want to take a nap and were so cranky we put them to bed a half hour early. But it was still a good day.
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
#330
Today was a good day. Great morning, grocery shopping, sunshine, awesome nap, folded laundry, yummy dinner... Let's stop there!
I have been making bread for years. Sometimes it is ok, sometimes it is good. Tonight it was fantabulous. Really, if I could live in that loaf of French bread, I would! Yummy.
After we ate dinner, J told me "thank you for the bread, it was really good." Yep, he thanked mender the bread, not for dinner. I did cook a good dinner. But in the B house, bread makes us happy. And tonight's bread made us very happy!
I am laughing at myself now. Right now, I am watching a documentary about food and juicing and how horrible our eating habits are. Which is so very true- we all need to stop eating crap. And I am working on that.
But damn, my bread was good!
I have been making bread for years. Sometimes it is ok, sometimes it is good. Tonight it was fantabulous. Really, if I could live in that loaf of French bread, I would! Yummy.
After we ate dinner, J told me "thank you for the bread, it was really good." Yep, he thanked mender the bread, not for dinner. I did cook a good dinner. But in the B house, bread makes us happy. And tonight's bread made us very happy!
I am laughing at myself now. Right now, I am watching a documentary about food and juicing and how horrible our eating habits are. Which is so very true- we all need to stop eating crap. And I am working on that.
But damn, my bread was good!
Monday, October 24, 2011
#329
For the first time in years, I broke out my massage table. J was excited! I was just hoping I remembered half of the stuff I knew.
I am not sure what made me want to try out an old trick. But the last few days I had been thinking about it. Like I said, it has been years. And it went pretty good.
I am rusty, that's for sure. I have forgotten a few things. I didn't have the strength I used to have. And my full body massage didn't take as much time as it should have! I definitely need more practice.
Overall, though, it felt good. I didn't feel tired or awkward or completely incompetent. Just rusty. So I am going to try to change that- just for my own satisfaction.
The girls had a blast at the library. Of course. Our walk was fun, and playing in the leaves in our backyard was great. It was a good day. The girls were fun.
Oh man, their facial expressions and vocabulary amaze me! They are too smart, I tell you.
I am not sure what made me want to try out an old trick. But the last few days I had been thinking about it. Like I said, it has been years. And it went pretty good.
I am rusty, that's for sure. I have forgotten a few things. I didn't have the strength I used to have. And my full body massage didn't take as much time as it should have! I definitely need more practice.
Overall, though, it felt good. I didn't feel tired or awkward or completely incompetent. Just rusty. So I am going to try to change that- just for my own satisfaction.
The girls had a blast at the library. Of course. Our walk was fun, and playing in the leaves in our backyard was great. It was a good day. The girls were fun.
Oh man, their facial expressions and vocabulary amaze me! They are too smart, I tell you.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
#328
I had a good weekend. Which is saying a lot.
My week was crazy. Almost three year old girls that have their parents' stubbornness. A dad recovering from surgery that needs help I can only half give him. A husband that deserved way more attention and patience than he got. And me- having major issues with it all.
Definitely not my finest hour.
But Friday, I got to have a couple minutes with my husband that really helped me. I was feeling overwhelmed and lost in it all. And he reminded me that I am ok.
So I felt better about it all. I took a deep breath and remembered that I have a damn good life. And I took the opportunity to enjoy it all.
Another reason this weekend being so fun is surprising? We didn't really do anything. Which is normal and not exciting. But I do not like to do nothing. I like to get out of the house and go anywhere. J likes the exact opposite. So usually, we argue about plans and someone ends up grudgingly giving in.
But this weekend, we stayed home. One fun short outing on Saturday. But today we stayed in and had a really good day.
J is a rockstar when it comes to carving pumpkins. He is amazing. I am pretty good at roasting pumpkin seeds. Just ask me.
We didn't make it to Mass this morning. But instead of feeling disappointment or guilt, I felt great. I felt the Love today.
My week was crazy. Almost three year old girls that have their parents' stubbornness. A dad recovering from surgery that needs help I can only half give him. A husband that deserved way more attention and patience than he got. And me- having major issues with it all.
Definitely not my finest hour.
But Friday, I got to have a couple minutes with my husband that really helped me. I was feeling overwhelmed and lost in it all. And he reminded me that I am ok.
So I felt better about it all. I took a deep breath and remembered that I have a damn good life. And I took the opportunity to enjoy it all.
Another reason this weekend being so fun is surprising? We didn't really do anything. Which is normal and not exciting. But I do not like to do nothing. I like to get out of the house and go anywhere. J likes the exact opposite. So usually, we argue about plans and someone ends up grudgingly giving in.
But this weekend, we stayed home. One fun short outing on Saturday. But today we stayed in and had a really good day.
J is a rockstar when it comes to carving pumpkins. He is amazing. I am pretty good at roasting pumpkin seeds. Just ask me.
We didn't make it to Mass this morning. But instead of feeling disappointment or guilt, I felt great. I felt the Love today.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
#327
I need a hobby. A real, hardcore, 'I rock at this' hobby.
I was thinking about this earlier. When my girls are older and someone asks them what their mom likes, I don't want them to say something like "she cleans the house". I want them to think I do more than scrub the toilet.
But more than that, I want something that I can feel proud of. Something that I can get so wrapped up in and love every minute of. Something that people see and immediately think "Holly does that". I want to find my thing.
I can sew, and crochet, and write. And sarcasm, I am good at that. I can bake like a 1940s housewife. But I am not great at any of them.
So I think I need a hobby. Ideas? J's great idea was that I should be a 'beer fetcher'. Note to self, don't ask him what I should do as he is finishing a beer. I love that guy!
Completely unrelated, but I have a weird jaundiced looking hand today. Really, my right hand is as yellow as a legal pad. That's not good, right?!
I was thinking about this earlier. When my girls are older and someone asks them what their mom likes, I don't want them to say something like "she cleans the house". I want them to think I do more than scrub the toilet.
But more than that, I want something that I can feel proud of. Something that I can get so wrapped up in and love every minute of. Something that people see and immediately think "Holly does that". I want to find my thing.
I can sew, and crochet, and write. And sarcasm, I am good at that. I can bake like a 1940s housewife. But I am not great at any of them.
So I think I need a hobby. Ideas? J's great idea was that I should be a 'beer fetcher'. Note to self, don't ask him what I should do as he is finishing a beer. I love that guy!
Completely unrelated, but I have a weird jaundiced looking hand today. Really, my right hand is as yellow as a legal pad. That's not good, right?!
Friday, October 21, 2011
#326
In the middle of a crazy day, I had a great couple moments with my husband.
My chicks were better today than they were yesterday. But they still had some whine to them. I was ready for their nap. What I wasn't ready for was my emotional dump.
Thankfully I have an amazing husband that deals with my crap. He really is great and I totally lucked out. So even though I was dealing with some stuff, it was good to deal with it because my guy was there for me.
And now I feel like I am getting sick. My head is all funky and heavy. My eyes are burning. I have a fever. I am freezing. And I am tired, so tired.
My chicks were better today than they were yesterday. But they still had some whine to them. I was ready for their nap. What I wasn't ready for was my emotional dump.
Thankfully I have an amazing husband that deals with my crap. He really is great and I totally lucked out. So even though I was dealing with some stuff, it was good to deal with it because my guy was there for me.
And now I feel like I am getting sick. My head is all funky and heavy. My eyes are burning. I have a fever. I am freezing. And I am tired, so tired.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
#325
Today I sucked as a mom. Really really sucked.
The morning started of like every other morning. Cheerful happy girls, ready to have fun and enjoy a great day. Fast forward a couple hours. I was in the kitchen making applesauce, P was watching me, K was sobbing in her room. I do not know why, but I know it continued for half an hour. Then P cried. Then they fought. Then they got hurt. We ate lunch. We played.
They did not take a nap. Instead they took every toy they owned and spread the ridiculous amount of crap around their room. While I was on the phone with my dad, trying to get paperwork filled out for him. Because he is pretty much blind and can't do it.
So when I was done with that, I dealt with my rebel daughters. After a time out, they were told to pick up their toys. Multiple times. So, I picked up all their toys. And put them in the closet.
They have stuffed animals and books. I don't feel like they are neglected. I am a little sad that they didn't seem too upset about their toys being taken away- took away from the punishment factor. But it is great that they aren't super attached to 'stuff'.
After that, their bad behavior continued. And my way of handling it deteriorated. I was just done with little girls that didn't want to listen.
After dinner, though, we sat on the couch and read a trillion books. Library books that were new to us, that were fun and silly and colorful and left a ton to be filled in with our imaginations. My daughters love books. And after our not so great day, it was perfect to sit and love something together.
I blew it, repeatedly, today. Instead of being calm and nice and patient, I was horrible and angry. If this is God trying to help me practice the virtues I need work on, then I am want to call a time out. Because another day like today and I will be buying a one way ticket to anywhere!
I love my girls to pieces. I do not like the girl I was today. Thankfully, my girls rock, and they love Mommy even when I suck.
The morning started of like every other morning. Cheerful happy girls, ready to have fun and enjoy a great day. Fast forward a couple hours. I was in the kitchen making applesauce, P was watching me, K was sobbing in her room. I do not know why, but I know it continued for half an hour. Then P cried. Then they fought. Then they got hurt. We ate lunch. We played.
They did not take a nap. Instead they took every toy they owned and spread the ridiculous amount of crap around their room. While I was on the phone with my dad, trying to get paperwork filled out for him. Because he is pretty much blind and can't do it.
So when I was done with that, I dealt with my rebel daughters. After a time out, they were told to pick up their toys. Multiple times. So, I picked up all their toys. And put them in the closet.
They have stuffed animals and books. I don't feel like they are neglected. I am a little sad that they didn't seem too upset about their toys being taken away- took away from the punishment factor. But it is great that they aren't super attached to 'stuff'.
After that, their bad behavior continued. And my way of handling it deteriorated. I was just done with little girls that didn't want to listen.
After dinner, though, we sat on the couch and read a trillion books. Library books that were new to us, that were fun and silly and colorful and left a ton to be filled in with our imaginations. My daughters love books. And after our not so great day, it was perfect to sit and love something together.
I blew it, repeatedly, today. Instead of being calm and nice and patient, I was horrible and angry. If this is God trying to help me practice the virtues I need work on, then I am want to call a time out. Because another day like today and I will be buying a one way ticket to anywhere!
I love my girls to pieces. I do not like the girl I was today. Thankfully, my girls rock, and they love Mommy even when I suck.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
#324
Ow my head. I have been sitting on the couch, watching tv/crocheting. And when J told me he was going to bed, and I got up to join him, my head felt like it was going to split open. Seriously.
Today was a good day. MOPS, which was fun for me and the chicks. Baking time: apple cake with caramel frosting. Yum.
The girls didn't nap. And I was a bit irritated with things. My chicks not napping just stretched my frayed nerves. So, I think I will have to follow the blogger trend and make some 'quiet time' bags. I am going to go through their toys and books to find fillers for said bags. Make said bags. Implement quiet time.
That is the plan.
I also need to organize my closet. This morning I had to get my long sleeved shirts down. Which meant I jumped and grabbed- greatest method ever, right? Except for the mess I made. Now I have a crazy pile of clothes in my closet.
Add that to tomorrow's to do list.
Hmm. Maybe that is my problem. It is cold! Really really cold. And I am not a cold fan.
Today was a good day. MOPS, which was fun for me and the chicks. Baking time: apple cake with caramel frosting. Yum.
The girls didn't nap. And I was a bit irritated with things. My chicks not napping just stretched my frayed nerves. So, I think I will have to follow the blogger trend and make some 'quiet time' bags. I am going to go through their toys and books to find fillers for said bags. Make said bags. Implement quiet time.
That is the plan.
I also need to organize my closet. This morning I had to get my long sleeved shirts down. Which meant I jumped and grabbed- greatest method ever, right? Except for the mess I made. Now I have a crazy pile of clothes in my closet.
Add that to tomorrow's to do list.
Hmm. Maybe that is my problem. It is cold! Really really cold. And I am not a cold fan.
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
#323
I have been trying to untangle yarn for the last hour. I think my eyes are crossing! But it is all good- when I am done, I can continue to work on my new blankie. If the hubs wasn't snoring on my lap, I would have given up long ago. But I didn't want to move.
Thankfully, today was so much better than yesterday. My chicks woke up happy and healthy. Well, mostly healthy. P has had a low grade fever on and off today. Who knows what that is all about.
But yeah, we had a mostly good day. And because I didn't want to pull my hair out, I was able to make some yummy apple stuff. I canned some apple pie filling. J tried some on ice cream tonight and he said it was good. I also made a batch of applesauce with Golden Delish apples. Hopefully tomorrow I will make my pink applesauce. And then I will only have my Granny Smiths to deal with. They are my favorites to eat, yet I am having issues deciding what to do with them!
...I was thinking about the 'stay at home mom' thing today. I love it. Because my job description is different from my friend's, whose is different from her neighbor's, whose is different from my sister's... And every day is different. Honestly, today I had planned on relaxing in my pj's, playing with the girls, and cooking a little. On top of that, I went to the store and cleaned some. And froze because of the temp dropping 20 degrees in a few hours.
No, my life isn't scheduled. No, I do not get dressed up every morning and go to an office. No, my every day life isn't really work. My every day life is fun. I play with stuffed animals and read books. I watch Sesame Street and bake. I try to lead by example. I hand out hugs and time outs.
Every day I get to teach my daughters a million things.
The number one thing I teach them? There is nothing more important to me than my daughters. They are more valuable to me than anything in this world. And they are definitely worthy of my time.
Thankfully, today was so much better than yesterday. My chicks woke up happy and healthy. Well, mostly healthy. P has had a low grade fever on and off today. Who knows what that is all about.
But yeah, we had a mostly good day. And because I didn't want to pull my hair out, I was able to make some yummy apple stuff. I canned some apple pie filling. J tried some on ice cream tonight and he said it was good. I also made a batch of applesauce with Golden Delish apples. Hopefully tomorrow I will make my pink applesauce. And then I will only have my Granny Smiths to deal with. They are my favorites to eat, yet I am having issues deciding what to do with them!
...I was thinking about the 'stay at home mom' thing today. I love it. Because my job description is different from my friend's, whose is different from her neighbor's, whose is different from my sister's... And every day is different. Honestly, today I had planned on relaxing in my pj's, playing with the girls, and cooking a little. On top of that, I went to the store and cleaned some. And froze because of the temp dropping 20 degrees in a few hours.
No, my life isn't scheduled. No, I do not get dressed up every morning and go to an office. No, my every day life isn't really work. My every day life is fun. I play with stuffed animals and read books. I watch Sesame Street and bake. I try to lead by example. I hand out hugs and time outs.
Every day I get to teach my daughters a million things.
The number one thing I teach them? There is nothing more important to me than my daughters. They are more valuable to me than anything in this world. And they are definitely worthy of my time.
Monday, October 17, 2011
#322
Today was definitely not my finest hour.
Not. Even. Close.
The girls were having trouble listening. My dog didn't want to be quiet at the vet. And my nerves were shot.
Maybe the girls were acting up because of my mood. Maybe my mood was because the girls were acting up. It doesn't matter one bit shy my day was the way it was. It all boils down to a pretty bad day for me.
At the library, the girls loved story time. But as soon as that was over, they were crazy. So I honestly have no idea what books I got. Going to the post office was nice of me- MIL and awesome friends, you are welcome- but dealing with two monsters who refuses to stand still was not fun. One UPS store couldn't do what I needed, so of course I had to drive to the other store all the way across town.
Max's blood work came back normal. So we can continue to give him his meds. Yay. Because he didn't have any this weekend and it was obvious.
My head hurts. I am still irritated. My throat is getting a tickle. And I am not baking. Or cleaning.
Not. Even. Close.
The girls were having trouble listening. My dog didn't want to be quiet at the vet. And my nerves were shot.
Maybe the girls were acting up because of my mood. Maybe my mood was because the girls were acting up. It doesn't matter one bit shy my day was the way it was. It all boils down to a pretty bad day for me.
At the library, the girls loved story time. But as soon as that was over, they were crazy. So I honestly have no idea what books I got. Going to the post office was nice of me- MIL and awesome friends, you are welcome- but dealing with two monsters who refuses to stand still was not fun. One UPS store couldn't do what I needed, so of course I had to drive to the other store all the way across town.
Max's blood work came back normal. So we can continue to give him his meds. Yay. Because he didn't have any this weekend and it was obvious.
My head hurts. I am still irritated. My throat is getting a tickle. And I am not baking. Or cleaning.
Sunday, October 16, 2011
#321
This morning I woke up with no desire to get dressed and attend Mass. I wanted to stay in bed or lay on the couch. Be lazy.
But I got dressed. And decided to leave the girls at home. 15 minutes before I left, the girls said they wanted to go to Mass. How could I tell them they had to stay home?? So we threw some clothes on and ran out the door. It was a little crazy. But how cool that my girls chose to go to church instead of staying home?!
In the kitchen, I started some apple processing. Really just a couple tests. One loaf of apple bread, and a tiny batch of apple sauce. I wanted to make sure the recipes I had were tasty before I went overboard. The applesauce was yummy. and I will try the bread at breakfast tomorrow. Tomorrow I will make a big batch of sauce and/or pie filling to can. And possibly some more bread. It all smells so yummy!
After dinner, the B crew went for a walk. It was super nice. The sun had pretty much set, so we got to explore Dusk with a couple of chatty and curious little girls. It was definitely one of those moments that remind me how blessed I am.
But I got dressed. And decided to leave the girls at home. 15 minutes before I left, the girls said they wanted to go to Mass. How could I tell them they had to stay home?? So we threw some clothes on and ran out the door. It was a little crazy. But how cool that my girls chose to go to church instead of staying home?!
In the kitchen, I started some apple processing. Really just a couple tests. One loaf of apple bread, and a tiny batch of apple sauce. I wanted to make sure the recipes I had were tasty before I went overboard. The applesauce was yummy. and I will try the bread at breakfast tomorrow. Tomorrow I will make a big batch of sauce and/or pie filling to can. And possibly some more bread. It all smells so yummy!
After dinner, the B crew went for a walk. It was super nice. The sun had pretty much set, so we got to explore Dusk with a couple of chatty and curious little girls. It was definitely one of those moments that remind me how blessed I am.
Saturday, October 15, 2011
#320
Back in May, our first month here at Campbell, at the WIC office we met a little girl the same age as my girls. They had a blast playing. And I had a blast talking to her mommy. In the waiting room.
Since then, we have been playing Facebook tag, trying to get together. Every time we try, something comes up. Until today. Today was that little girl's birthday party. And the kiddos all had a blast! I am so happy we were finally able to get together so the girls could play. And hopefully we can get together again.
The only downside to this was my immense desire to smoke. There were quite a few smokers at the party. Oh goodness, I would love a cigarette right now. Five hours later, and I am still thinking I want one!
Before the party, we went to an orchard nearby. And got a ton of apples. There were apples that I haven't even heard of, that I got just to try. But I will be baking yummy goodness tomorrow. So I am happy.
The sucky thing about today was missing J's grandpa's surprise party. They were having a huge party for him, with pretty much the whole family. Sans the B crew. It super sucks for J that he missed it all. Back in Feb I missed my nana's big party, so I know the suckiness. And it sucks for my girls because they missed out an opportunity to meet their daddy's family. Just another day in the Army life, right?
Update on Dad: he is doing ok. Most of one big toe is gone, part of the other big toe is gone. Which, I bet, is hard to accept. As is being alone. But over all, he is doing ok.
Update on my head: ugh.
Since then, we have been playing Facebook tag, trying to get together. Every time we try, something comes up. Until today. Today was that little girl's birthday party. And the kiddos all had a blast! I am so happy we were finally able to get together so the girls could play. And hopefully we can get together again.
The only downside to this was my immense desire to smoke. There were quite a few smokers at the party. Oh goodness, I would love a cigarette right now. Five hours later, and I am still thinking I want one!
Before the party, we went to an orchard nearby. And got a ton of apples. There were apples that I haven't even heard of, that I got just to try. But I will be baking yummy goodness tomorrow. So I am happy.
The sucky thing about today was missing J's grandpa's surprise party. They were having a huge party for him, with pretty much the whole family. Sans the B crew. It super sucks for J that he missed it all. Back in Feb I missed my nana's big party, so I know the suckiness. And it sucks for my girls because they missed out an opportunity to meet their daddy's family. Just another day in the Army life, right?
Update on Dad: he is doing ok. Most of one big toe is gone, part of the other big toe is gone. Which, I bet, is hard to accept. As is being alone. But over all, he is doing ok.
Update on my head: ugh.
Friday, October 14, 2011
#319
Today is going in the win category. It was a close game. And I definitely didn't cover the spread. But it still goes down as a win.
Last night my dad was admitted to the hospital for his foot. So this morning, really all day, I was I the phone with him. He found out early this morning that the podiatrist would be taking off most of his big toes. And when he got in there, he would find out how much of the for to take off. Which means, my dad was stressing all day. Can you blame him?
The end result ? I have no idea. He had the surgery. I called the nurse station to check on him, and they put me through to his room. He had just gotten out of surgery, and silly guy answered the phone. So I know he is ok, but that is the extent of the information I was able to pull out of him, 15 minutes post-op!
Like I said, I was on the phone most of today. And most of the time that I was at MCCW I was trying to get info from dad, then passing that info on. So it wasn't a successful meeting for me. Except it kind of was. Because I have a couple ladies there that I really feel are friends. And even though we weren't able to really talk, I am glad I was able to see them.
And this evening I had dinner with my friend J. I love our dates! We both wanted to try a German restaurant. Ugh. My schnitzel was not what I had hoped for. And either thru charges me wrong, or I paid way too much for a not great meal. The conversation was great though. Which makes me happy. Because I so needed a couple hours to take a deep breath. And it reminded me how awesome my friends are.
Like I said. Win. Barely, but a win.
Last night my dad was admitted to the hospital for his foot. So this morning, really all day, I was I the phone with him. He found out early this morning that the podiatrist would be taking off most of his big toes. And when he got in there, he would find out how much of the for to take off. Which means, my dad was stressing all day. Can you blame him?
The end result ? I have no idea. He had the surgery. I called the nurse station to check on him, and they put me through to his room. He had just gotten out of surgery, and silly guy answered the phone. So I know he is ok, but that is the extent of the information I was able to pull out of him, 15 minutes post-op!
Like I said, I was on the phone most of today. And most of the time that I was at MCCW I was trying to get info from dad, then passing that info on. So it wasn't a successful meeting for me. Except it kind of was. Because I have a couple ladies there that I really feel are friends. And even though we weren't able to really talk, I am glad I was able to see them.
And this evening I had dinner with my friend J. I love our dates! We both wanted to try a German restaurant. Ugh. My schnitzel was not what I had hoped for. And either thru charges me wrong, or I paid way too much for a not great meal. The conversation was great though. Which makes me happy. Because I so needed a couple hours to take a deep breath. And it reminded me how awesome my friends are.
Like I said. Win. Barely, but a win.
Thursday, October 13, 2011
#318
My dad is in the hospital. Again.
He has diabetes and bad feet. I have been bullying him to go to the dr/ER for a week now. And tonight he finally went in. He has been admitted and we will know more later. Hopefully it isn't too bad.
It all sucks to be too far away to do anything. Being in Kentucky isn't that much different from being in Germany. I am still far away from my family without the money to fly to them. especially because it is my dad, and I know how much he hates the hospital.
K has been super literal today. I told her 'Go ahead' and she told me Don't tell me that. This is my head (while pointing)." And when P and Daddy decided to take a pretend walk to the pretend park, K got upset because try weren't really going. She loves pretending- but today she needed people to mean exactly what try said!
P was the complete opposite. She loves pretending too, and today was not an exception. She was Rapunzel, Princess, and Teacher Suzy (from the PBS cartoon Sid the Science Kid). She went to the store a trillion times, and her 'baby girl' aka her bear, needed a few time outs.
I love their minds. It is so awesome to see their imaginations and brains working.
He has diabetes and bad feet. I have been bullying him to go to the dr/ER for a week now. And tonight he finally went in. He has been admitted and we will know more later. Hopefully it isn't too bad.
It all sucks to be too far away to do anything. Being in Kentucky isn't that much different from being in Germany. I am still far away from my family without the money to fly to them. especially because it is my dad, and I know how much he hates the hospital.
K has been super literal today. I told her 'Go ahead' and she told me Don't tell me that. This is my head (while pointing)." And when P and Daddy decided to take a pretend walk to the pretend park, K got upset because try weren't really going. She loves pretending- but today she needed people to mean exactly what try said!
P was the complete opposite. She loves pretending too, and today was not an exception. She was Rapunzel, Princess, and Teacher Suzy (from the PBS cartoon Sid the Science Kid). She went to the store a trillion times, and her 'baby girl' aka her bear, needed a few time outs.
I love their minds. It is so awesome to see their imaginations and brains working.
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
#317
Do you ever have a day where you know you accomplished a lot, but you feel like you didn't do much throughout the day? Today was like that for me.
I ran my errands and got everything taken care of. Well, actually I didn't do two things, but I did things I had planned to do tomorrow. So it all evens out in the end.
I cleaned my house. Cooked dinner. Had fun playing with my daughters. Made them each a hat, because they wanted one like Mommy's. Exercised. Watched a little tv. Read part of an ok book.
I did things today. But I do not really have much to say about it all. It was just a day in my life. Fun and boring, productive and unimaginative.
I did notice tonight that one thing I haven't been doing well lately is spending time with my husband. It is not like we have been super busy lately that we have had to push something to the back burner. We have just been... I don know. I guess we have just been slacking on making each other a priority.
So, I am going to do just that. Or maybe I will settle for some cuddling because I think I hear him snoring.
I ran my errands and got everything taken care of. Well, actually I didn't do two things, but I did things I had planned to do tomorrow. So it all evens out in the end.
I cleaned my house. Cooked dinner. Had fun playing with my daughters. Made them each a hat, because they wanted one like Mommy's. Exercised. Watched a little tv. Read part of an ok book.
I did things today. But I do not really have much to say about it all. It was just a day in my life. Fun and boring, productive and unimaginative.
I did notice tonight that one thing I haven't been doing well lately is spending time with my husband. It is not like we have been super busy lately that we have had to push something to the back burner. We have just been... I don know. I guess we have just been slacking on making each other a priority.
So, I am going to do just that. Or maybe I will settle for some cuddling because I think I hear him snoring.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
#316
Late night blogging. Not so fun! Especially when you has been awake for a very long time.
I believe P has entered the bad dream phase. Which, if she is like me, will last forever. At about 5:30 this morning, I woke up to my baby girl screaming. It terrified me. So I ran in there and held her while reassuring K that P was ok. Even after she calmed down, P still didn't want me to leave her. Poor baby. I don't like this.
But since I was up early, I tried a new bagel recipe. Everything bagels. J was excited to try them. Until he tried them. Too much salt, other than that they were good. That is what he said- I didn't try them. I just wasn't in the mood for a bagel. Which sucks since I had super crazy fresh bagels right in front of my face! Oh well, I'll try them tomorrow.
This afternoon, while P was napping and K was having issues listening, I looked up some crafty ideas online. Then I went digging in my crafty tote. And let me just say, that thing is scary! Pictures, cards, scissors, tape, paper, scissors, yarn, needles, fabric, more sharp pointy objects... You get my point.
So I found a little tutorial for crocheting a hat. Which I have never done before. Well, never successfully done. My crochet talents end with scarves, blankets. You know, simple quadrilaterals. But I have tons of skeins of yarn. And I love hats. So I attempted to make a hat. And it rocks! I love it. Its a total hippie/Bob Marley/I didn't want to do my hair hat. Awesome. J said he liked it, but I am pretty sure he lied.
Oh, and I raked leaves today. I am relatively sure that is the first time I have ever raked Fall leaves, in my whole life. weird, right? Maybe I have and just do not remember?? Who knows. It was nice to see the green grass emerge from the massive amount of dead leaves. And the chicks had a blast playing in the huge pile. So yeah for us!
I believe P has entered the bad dream phase. Which, if she is like me, will last forever. At about 5:30 this morning, I woke up to my baby girl screaming. It terrified me. So I ran in there and held her while reassuring K that P was ok. Even after she calmed down, P still didn't want me to leave her. Poor baby. I don't like this.
But since I was up early, I tried a new bagel recipe. Everything bagels. J was excited to try them. Until he tried them. Too much salt, other than that they were good. That is what he said- I didn't try them. I just wasn't in the mood for a bagel. Which sucks since I had super crazy fresh bagels right in front of my face! Oh well, I'll try them tomorrow.
This afternoon, while P was napping and K was having issues listening, I looked up some crafty ideas online. Then I went digging in my crafty tote. And let me just say, that thing is scary! Pictures, cards, scissors, tape, paper, scissors, yarn, needles, fabric, more sharp pointy objects... You get my point.
So I found a little tutorial for crocheting a hat. Which I have never done before. Well, never successfully done. My crochet talents end with scarves, blankets. You know, simple quadrilaterals. But I have tons of skeins of yarn. And I love hats. So I attempted to make a hat. And it rocks! I love it. Its a total hippie/Bob Marley/I didn't want to do my hair hat. Awesome. J said he liked it, but I am pretty sure he lied.
Oh, and I raked leaves today. I am relatively sure that is the first time I have ever raked Fall leaves, in my whole life. weird, right? Maybe I have and just do not remember?? Who knows. It was nice to see the green grass emerge from the massive amount of dead leaves. And the chicks had a blast playing in the huge pile. So yeah for us!
Monday, October 10, 2011
#315
I need to have an eye exam. I need to take my car to the shop to get the brakes checked and the oil changed. I need to schedule the girls dentist appointment. I need to buy a birthday gift for the girls friend. I need to take books back to the library. I need to mail a few packages.
I need to be thankful for at least five seconds before I feel overwhelmed.
All the things I need to do are doable. I can run errands and make appointments and pay for services rendered. Not everyone can say that. Not everyone that is dear to me can say that.
And it sucks. Sorry, no pretty words tonight.
My dad's health is horrible. That is his business and I absolutely refuse to get in to that here. But he is my dad. And I love him. And it royally sucks to see him struggle.
I feel useless. Which makes me mad. Which makes me determined. Which doesn't change the fact that I am lost and possibly in way over my head. Which all means nothing because none of it is about me.
I want to say more. But I cannot. This is me, filtering my thoughts. Filtering them from myself.
And it sucks.
Are you getting any of this? Or am I just jumbling feelings and words into a mess that sane people will never grasp?
I need to be thankful for at least five seconds before I feel overwhelmed.
All the things I need to do are doable. I can run errands and make appointments and pay for services rendered. Not everyone can say that. Not everyone that is dear to me can say that.
And it sucks. Sorry, no pretty words tonight.
My dad's health is horrible. That is his business and I absolutely refuse to get in to that here. But he is my dad. And I love him. And it royally sucks to see him struggle.
I feel useless. Which makes me mad. Which makes me determined. Which doesn't change the fact that I am lost and possibly in way over my head. Which all means nothing because none of it is about me.
I want to say more. But I cannot. This is me, filtering my thoughts. Filtering them from myself.
And it sucks.
Are you getting any of this? Or am I just jumbling feelings and words into a mess that sane people will never grasp?
Sunday, October 9, 2011
#314
Yesterday was a bit of a cry baby day for me. Sorry about that. I just had a bad day, and the recurring pain recurred one too many times. It's frustrating.
Today was not a walk in the park either. There is the awesome thing I like to call my migraine hangover. The migraines drain my energy. My muscles ache. My stomach feels nasty. Like a hangover. Not pleasent.
But this afternoon my family went to the park.
It wasn't exactly fun for me physically. I wanted to go home, drink 50 gallons of water (because water will make it better?! I dont know!) and sleep for a few years. But I was so happy to be there. To see my girls playing at the elementary school playground with their dad. They had a blast. Climbing, sliding, falling.
Yeah, my little K.
Do you remember the metal slides? The twisty ones with steep stairs, the rivets showing and bumping your butt on the way down? The slides we knew as kids? They look horribly unsafe when your daughter is near one. What were our parents thinking?!
Well, my chicks love slides. So they were drawn to the unique slide on the grounds. On her third or fourth trip up the stairs, K tumbled off. It was one of those 'What bone is broken? How long will we be at the ER?" falls. But my chick is tough. With my DNA and J's DNA, they have to be tough. She has a scratch and bruise on her elbow. And that is all. She was asking to get back on the slide before she stopped crying.
I am not sure what is going on with P. One minute she is amazingly chipper and funny. The next she is whining because she wants a chair. And I mean whining. I am not sure what is going on.
Today was not a walk in the park either. There is the awesome thing I like to call my migraine hangover. The migraines drain my energy. My muscles ache. My stomach feels nasty. Like a hangover. Not pleasent.
But this afternoon my family went to the park.
It wasn't exactly fun for me physically. I wanted to go home, drink 50 gallons of water (because water will make it better?! I dont know!) and sleep for a few years. But I was so happy to be there. To see my girls playing at the elementary school playground with their dad. They had a blast. Climbing, sliding, falling.
Yeah, my little K.
Do you remember the metal slides? The twisty ones with steep stairs, the rivets showing and bumping your butt on the way down? The slides we knew as kids? They look horribly unsafe when your daughter is near one. What were our parents thinking?!
Well, my chicks love slides. So they were drawn to the unique slide on the grounds. On her third or fourth trip up the stairs, K tumbled off. It was one of those 'What bone is broken? How long will we be at the ER?" falls. But my chick is tough. With my DNA and J's DNA, they have to be tough. She has a scratch and bruise on her elbow. And that is all. She was asking to get back on the slide before she stopped crying.
I am not sure what is going on with P. One minute she is amazingly chipper and funny. The next she is whining because she wants a chair. And I mean whining. I am not sure what is going on.
Saturday, October 8, 2011
#313
I feel like I am very quickly reaching the end of my rope.
My migraines seem to be getting crazy bad. I have not won the lottery, possibly because I don't play. But Money is still really tight. And when I am upset I just want to bake a cake or something. But that cost money and the blender hurts my head.
So. End of my metaphorical rope. Right here.
How much does it suck that my girls had to stay home on such a nice day? J played outside for a little bit. But I was on the couch almost all day, with the curtains closed. And I am to blame for at least part of it. My doctor gave me a new medicine to try. But I am scared to try it. Yep, tough Holly is scared of a little pill. Because I have been on that scary chemistry roller coaster before. It sucked. And I do not want to do it again.
So tomorrow I will be taking charge. One way or another. Because I am that stubborn. Step one is starting a crazy OCD journal about everything I eat, everywhere I go, how much sleep I get, everything. Hopefully, I can find things that have an effect on my pain. 13 years is too long to deal with this pain.
My migraines seem to be getting crazy bad. I have not won the lottery, possibly because I don't play. But Money is still really tight. And when I am upset I just want to bake a cake or something. But that cost money and the blender hurts my head.
So. End of my metaphorical rope. Right here.
How much does it suck that my girls had to stay home on such a nice day? J played outside for a little bit. But I was on the couch almost all day, with the curtains closed. And I am to blame for at least part of it. My doctor gave me a new medicine to try. But I am scared to try it. Yep, tough Holly is scared of a little pill. Because I have been on that scary chemistry roller coaster before. It sucked. And I do not want to do it again.
So tomorrow I will be taking charge. One way or another. Because I am that stubborn. Step one is starting a crazy OCD journal about everything I eat, everywhere I go, how much sleep I get, everything. Hopefully, I can find things that have an effect on my pain. 13 years is too long to deal with this pain.
Friday, October 7, 2011
#312
"All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing."
This quote is often attributed to Edmund Burke. However, there is no proof he actually said or write that. He said something comparing good and evil- he was an amazing smart man.
Anyway, whoever said it first was right. I very firmly believe there is Evil in this world. And I know there are many times that I fail in doing the right thing.
Tonight I was reminded of that is something that might sound so minor. But is important, so very important. A dear friend of mine shared an article about a judge deciding that people cannot drink milk from their own cows.
I was really interested in reading the article. I feel that the way we eat is just horrid. And the way our government treats our food, and our health, is atrocious.
But two paragraphs into the article and I could no longer keep my focus. And when I go shopping, I head to the local mega-grocers. I do not buy a lot of processed foods, but I get a couple things. And yes, I love my processed white sugar.
This is really a problem, people. We think the stuff we are putting in to our bodies is food. It is not. And we so often fail to see the connection between what we put in our bodies and how our bodies behave. Too bad our doctors prescribe chemicals instead of treating the human body...
I know I am a huge hypocrite. I do not eat like I should. I do not feed my family like I should. But I am working on it. And I am trying to educate myself and my family on Healthy choices. Not just following a trend or doing what some article online told me to do. I really want to help my family be as healthy as we can. And that starts with what we put in to our bodies.
Hippocrates said "Let food by thy medicine." How did we get so far from this way of thinking? And how can we get back?
This quote is often attributed to Edmund Burke. However, there is no proof he actually said or write that. He said something comparing good and evil- he was an amazing smart man.
Anyway, whoever said it first was right. I very firmly believe there is Evil in this world. And I know there are many times that I fail in doing the right thing.
Tonight I was reminded of that is something that might sound so minor. But is important, so very important. A dear friend of mine shared an article about a judge deciding that people cannot drink milk from their own cows.
I was really interested in reading the article. I feel that the way we eat is just horrid. And the way our government treats our food, and our health, is atrocious.
But two paragraphs into the article and I could no longer keep my focus. And when I go shopping, I head to the local mega-grocers. I do not buy a lot of processed foods, but I get a couple things. And yes, I love my processed white sugar.
This is really a problem, people. We think the stuff we are putting in to our bodies is food. It is not. And we so often fail to see the connection between what we put in our bodies and how our bodies behave. Too bad our doctors prescribe chemicals instead of treating the human body...
I know I am a huge hypocrite. I do not eat like I should. I do not feed my family like I should. But I am working on it. And I am trying to educate myself and my family on Healthy choices. Not just following a trend or doing what some article online told me to do. I really want to help my family be as healthy as we can. And that starts with what we put in to our bodies.
Hippocrates said "Let food by thy medicine." How did we get so far from this way of thinking? And how can we get back?
Thursday, October 6, 2011
#311
"Its simply worded assertions might strike cynics as posturing, a simplistic and chauvinistic relic of a time when Americans carried with them to war a conceit that they were stronger, better, and more virtuous than any enemy they would face."
John McCain said that about the Code of Conduct in his book. Upon reading it, my first thought was 'Well, we (Americans) are better than our enemies." which is, I am sure, the conceit that was mentioned. But that is exactly how I feel, and how any warrior going in to battle should feel. You have to feel that you are stronger, better, and more virtuous. Otherwise, why fight?
I have really enjoyed the last couple chapters that I have read of this book. It is taking me way longer to read this book than it usually does. But I really am enjoying it, especially what I have read today. I love to hear someone profess their love for their country. And to hear if from a man who suffered immensely for his country- it's wonderful. It is horrible to read what happened to him, but lovely to read about the men he was surrounded by and the man he is.
It is also really interesting to see the political vs military approach to Vietnam. It was opposed, partly because the war went on and on. But it went on and on, partly because the politicians put too much stock in public opinion and not enough in winning the war.
Sound familiar?? I thought so.
My trials of today were not horrible, but they were trying. P was a big bag of whine today. And not a good Sangria. I tried to have a good fun walk near the river, with some playground time as a reward. Instead I had an upset kid and another kid defending her sister. So we cut our walk short and drove home. They were put down for a nap early and woke up so much happier. Thank goodness!
John McCain said that about the Code of Conduct in his book. Upon reading it, my first thought was 'Well, we (Americans) are better than our enemies." which is, I am sure, the conceit that was mentioned. But that is exactly how I feel, and how any warrior going in to battle should feel. You have to feel that you are stronger, better, and more virtuous. Otherwise, why fight?
I have really enjoyed the last couple chapters that I have read of this book. It is taking me way longer to read this book than it usually does. But I really am enjoying it, especially what I have read today. I love to hear someone profess their love for their country. And to hear if from a man who suffered immensely for his country- it's wonderful. It is horrible to read what happened to him, but lovely to read about the men he was surrounded by and the man he is.
It is also really interesting to see the political vs military approach to Vietnam. It was opposed, partly because the war went on and on. But it went on and on, partly because the politicians put too much stock in public opinion and not enough in winning the war.
Sound familiar?? I thought so.
My trials of today were not horrible, but they were trying. P was a big bag of whine today. And not a good Sangria. I tried to have a good fun walk near the river, with some playground time as a reward. Instead I had an upset kid and another kid defending her sister. So we cut our walk short and drove home. They were put down for a nap early and woke up so much happier. Thank goodness!
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
#310
Sitting on a Tinkerbell rug, tossing around a ton of different balls, and laughing.
That is what this is all about. My life, my journey, my past. It is all so I can be a mommy to P and K, and teach them to catch a Princess football.
Today was a good day for us. We tried out MOPS for the first time. It was nice to chat about stuff with other ladies. It was nice. I was feeling ok about the meeting, until I picked up the girls. Then I was feeling great about it. The girls had a blast. They were playing with other kids and burning tons of energy. As we were driving home they asked to go back to play with their friends. So we will definitely be going again.
I got the chance to hippie up my girls today, too. We saw a crew trimming trees and bushes while we were driving. And since the windows were down, the girls asked about the noise. I told them trees were being cut, but that isn't very nice. Because we love trees, they are pretty, and they help us breathe. K was all in to it- which doesn't shock me because she is my hippie chick. P thought about it for a while. Five hours later she told me trees are nice. Love them.
Now, I have one dog asleep on his bed, one asleep on mine. Apple butter making itself in the crock pot. A pounding head. And a good book.
That is what this is all about. My life, my journey, my past. It is all so I can be a mommy to P and K, and teach them to catch a Princess football.
Today was a good day for us. We tried out MOPS for the first time. It was nice to chat about stuff with other ladies. It was nice. I was feeling ok about the meeting, until I picked up the girls. Then I was feeling great about it. The girls had a blast. They were playing with other kids and burning tons of energy. As we were driving home they asked to go back to play with their friends. So we will definitely be going again.
I got the chance to hippie up my girls today, too. We saw a crew trimming trees and bushes while we were driving. And since the windows were down, the girls asked about the noise. I told them trees were being cut, but that isn't very nice. Because we love trees, they are pretty, and they help us breathe. K was all in to it- which doesn't shock me because she is my hippie chick. P thought about it for a while. Five hours later she told me trees are nice. Love them.
Now, I have one dog asleep on his bed, one asleep on mine. Apple butter making itself in the crock pot. A pounding head. And a good book.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
#309
I woke up early to make bagels this morning. And I remember waking up early last week to make a yummy yeasty breakfast bread. I don't like mornings, but am willing to get out of bed if properly motivated. And maybe this is all prep for when I get all big and bad with my own bakery... Oh dreams...
The bagels were good. Plain, which I like. But I remember this bagel place I loved when I was younger. Asiago bagels with a yummy garlic spread. A friend also suggested I make asiago bagels. So next time I am going to try out a few variations. I am super happy I made the plain bagels though- they were yummy and easy.
My baking addiction had gotten a little out of hand lately. I went to the store and had to buy some more supplies. And even though it was on my list, I still forgot yeast. So annoying!
My trip to the store was filled with minor annoyances. Te girls and I got ready, locked the front door, walked to the car. And discovered the girls car seats were not in my car. J had them. So we walked to the park instead.
J came home, for about five seconds, unexpectedly, so I grabbed the seats and we went shopping. We get to the store and start shopping. Of course, a few things I needed were MIA. I forgot to give the cashier my awesome grocery bags, so I now have 50,000 plastic bags that I will have to remember to take back it. And J's toothpaste, that I was so proud to remember, somehow got lost between my cart and my house.
As I said, minor annoyances.
My chickens were pretty great today. We had fun just being us. They helped me make some sugar cookies, and picked the color for frosting. Orange, probably because they saw Orange frosting on cookies at the store. Mine were better. And my family had fun making them. Love my girls.
The bagels were good. Plain, which I like. But I remember this bagel place I loved when I was younger. Asiago bagels with a yummy garlic spread. A friend also suggested I make asiago bagels. So next time I am going to try out a few variations. I am super happy I made the plain bagels though- they were yummy and easy.
My baking addiction had gotten a little out of hand lately. I went to the store and had to buy some more supplies. And even though it was on my list, I still forgot yeast. So annoying!
My trip to the store was filled with minor annoyances. Te girls and I got ready, locked the front door, walked to the car. And discovered the girls car seats were not in my car. J had them. So we walked to the park instead.
J came home, for about five seconds, unexpectedly, so I grabbed the seats and we went shopping. We get to the store and start shopping. Of course, a few things I needed were MIA. I forgot to give the cashier my awesome grocery bags, so I now have 50,000 plastic bags that I will have to remember to take back it. And J's toothpaste, that I was so proud to remember, somehow got lost between my cart and my house.
As I said, minor annoyances.
My chickens were pretty great today. We had fun just being us. They helped me make some sugar cookies, and picked the color for frosting. Orange, probably because they saw Orange frosting on cookies at the store. Mine were better. And my family had fun making them. Love my girls.
Monday, October 3, 2011
#308
I made more jelly today. Jalapeño, but a different recipe. This one used twelve, yes twelve, jalapeños! My fingers are still burning from cutting those bad boys up. And I didn't even do very much cutting- just enough so my handy dandy Pampered Chef chopper could do it's job. But J's stupid plant is providing an impressive bounty, so I have to do something with them. Possibly give them to trick or treaters in a few weeks?!
I was thinking about the bible study issues today. Well, my issues with it, I guess I should say. And I have decided that I need to say something. Not just for myself. But because I want this bible study to be as great as it could be. There are some great women there, and we could all learn so much from one another. If things were organized better. Or so I think. So I am going to try to speak with the people I need to speak to.
This evening I watched a video. It was a super hard thing to watch and to think about. And it was something that I never would have thought of, a comparison that never crossed my mind. This video compared Hitler's holocaust to America's abortions. It was really interesting.
I also read an article about people's attire when attending Mass. And I really liked what it said. Basically, cover yourself up and show respect to Our Father. Common sense. But it really isn't anymore. Not gonna lie, I wear jeans to Mass sometimes. But I prefer to wear nicer clothes. And as a female, my biggest clothing concern is making sure 'the girls' are not on display. Because even though God made them, His people do not need to see them.
I was thinking about the bible study issues today. Well, my issues with it, I guess I should say. And I have decided that I need to say something. Not just for myself. But because I want this bible study to be as great as it could be. There are some great women there, and we could all learn so much from one another. If things were organized better. Or so I think. So I am going to try to speak with the people I need to speak to.
This evening I watched a video. It was a super hard thing to watch and to think about. And it was something that I never would have thought of, a comparison that never crossed my mind. This video compared Hitler's holocaust to America's abortions. It was really interesting.
I also read an article about people's attire when attending Mass. And I really liked what it said. Basically, cover yourself up and show respect to Our Father. Common sense. But it really isn't anymore. Not gonna lie, I wear jeans to Mass sometimes. But I prefer to wear nicer clothes. And as a female, my biggest clothing concern is making sure 'the girls' are not on display. Because even though God made them, His people do not need to see them.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
#307
Sometimes, the most memorable thing about Mass is your child walking right in to a wall!
Yes, my daughter Grace. After receiving Communion, as we were walking back to our seats, K wasn't paying attention to where she was walking. She does that all the time. And Bam! The wall just jumped out at her. While complete strangers were being nice and concerned, I was laughing. The girl really has an immense lack of grace.
Yeah, that was the highlight of my day. I did nothing else today. The only other good and memorable thing about today was seeing my awesome be a great dad.
He took the girls for a walk to the park. I was instructed by my princesses to stay home. So they went and had fun. It was cute. I looked out the window and got to see my girls have a great time with their daddy. And when they got home, I got to hear all about it.
That was pretty awesome.
Yes, my daughter Grace. After receiving Communion, as we were walking back to our seats, K wasn't paying attention to where she was walking. She does that all the time. And Bam! The wall just jumped out at her. While complete strangers were being nice and concerned, I was laughing. The girl really has an immense lack of grace.
Yeah, that was the highlight of my day. I did nothing else today. The only other good and memorable thing about today was seeing my awesome be a great dad.
He took the girls for a walk to the park. I was instructed by my princesses to stay home. So they went and had fun. It was cute. I looked out the window and got to see my girls have a great time with their daddy. And when they got home, I got to hear all about it.
That was pretty awesome.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
#306
Either A, I am getting sick. Or B, my body is reaffirming that it doesn't like the cold weather. Both mean the same thing- I feel like poo. I am tired and my head feels heavy and my muscles are getting that achy feeling.
It might just be the cold. This morning I woke up early and took part in a stupid American tradition. Setting your used belongings on the curb for others to look at and hopefully take home. Yep, for the first time in my life I had a yard sale. On the worst day ever. It was 44 degrees when I was setting up. And the huge tree in my front yard completely blocked out the sun. Then there was the so very pleasant wind whipping the cold air around. I froze.
But I did sell a few things. Not as much as I wanted. But i got rid of a few big things. So I am calling it a draw.
This afternoon we went to an orchard for their apple festival. J and I were excited to get a ton of apples, to help the girls pick their own, and to make yummy things when we got home. The girls were going to see animals and go on a hay ride and have a good fun day.
That was our thought. Reality?
We were not able to pick our own apples. When I asked about it I was told the apple trees hadn't had a good year. Ok, that understandable. But why were you advertising 'pick your own apples'?
The girls did not want a pony ride. J's allergies were not happy to be around nature, so the hay ride was out of the question. And there was no cider.
Instead of bringing home an immense amount of apples, we brought home three goldfish. Really. Their names are Pink, Purple, and Green. Note to self, only let J play carnival tossing games if I want him to win. Really, three goldfish! I admit, it was my idea to play the game and get the girls a fish. I just didn't expect him to succeed so completely.
So we drove to Walmart and got a fish tank, a bag of apples, caramel dip, and some beer.
Today was not the day I had planned. But it was interesting. And good.
It might just be the cold. This morning I woke up early and took part in a stupid American tradition. Setting your used belongings on the curb for others to look at and hopefully take home. Yep, for the first time in my life I had a yard sale. On the worst day ever. It was 44 degrees when I was setting up. And the huge tree in my front yard completely blocked out the sun. Then there was the so very pleasant wind whipping the cold air around. I froze.
But I did sell a few things. Not as much as I wanted. But i got rid of a few big things. So I am calling it a draw.
This afternoon we went to an orchard for their apple festival. J and I were excited to get a ton of apples, to help the girls pick their own, and to make yummy things when we got home. The girls were going to see animals and go on a hay ride and have a good fun day.
That was our thought. Reality?
We were not able to pick our own apples. When I asked about it I was told the apple trees hadn't had a good year. Ok, that understandable. But why were you advertising 'pick your own apples'?
The girls did not want a pony ride. J's allergies were not happy to be around nature, so the hay ride was out of the question. And there was no cider.
Instead of bringing home an immense amount of apples, we brought home three goldfish. Really. Their names are Pink, Purple, and Green. Note to self, only let J play carnival tossing games if I want him to win. Really, three goldfish! I admit, it was my idea to play the game and get the girls a fish. I just didn't expect him to succeed so completely.
So we drove to Walmart and got a fish tank, a bag of apples, caramel dip, and some beer.
Today was not the day I had planned. But it was interesting. And good.
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