So, those people in my life that are training for 1/2 marathons, and 'fun runs' and any of those things: you are all crazy. I just cannot get in to running. Mentally, physically, emotionally... It just doesn't work for me.
Yes, there is the whole "I am so out of shape" thing... But hey, I am working on that.
Tonight I rocked out to Flogging Molly while dying on the treadmill. And I gotta say, it was a little bit easier to get into the jogging time. There is just something awesome about bagpipes and jigs... They rock. Treadmill time still sucks, though.
FM was courtesy of the amazing S. Today P, K, and I met my friend S and her daughter/P and K's friend C. We went to our only play place and the home of my favorite french fries. McD's, how I love thee. And while the girls were running around like crazy little leprechauns, S and I were talking music. We both love FM and Dropkick Murphys. So I bummed her cd's and got to rock out. She is great.
And my chicks. Have I mentioned how cool they are? Well, tonight they were 'swimming' in the bathtub. Really, that was a huge proud mommy moment for me. They were just too freaking cute. After bath, they told me "Mommy, bear and monkey cheese?" which meant they wanted me to take their stuffed animals' picture. They got on the couch, each holding an animal, looked at the camera, and said 'cheese!' It was great! They are both looking, both smiling, both sitting still! I think we finally have the hang of this picture thing! Yes!
Monday, January 31, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
#62
Today was not a good mommy day. I lost all my patience and was just not a good mommy. I really don't like these days. I feel like a tyrant and a monster and a few other things, none of them nice.
J is on CQ (that lovely 24 hr duty). He will be home tomorrow morning, around the time the girls are getting up. And I am totally ok with him being gone for the day and night. 24 hours is no deal at all. But with the girls acting the way they were, and me acting the way I was... It was a very long day.
The sun was shining for most of the day though. P, K and I went for a little walk outside. Part of my plan was to get some fresh air in to them, part to change up the scenery and hopefully inspire an attitude change, and part to exhaust them so they would take a nap. Well, they got fresh air!
I didn't go to Mass today. I didn't take any time for myself and God. And I really think that was part of my issue today. Hindsight and all that, and the unopened bible that is staring at my right now. So I am going to dig in to the Word for a few minutes and pray that I wake up tomorrow refreshed.
"Come to me, all you who labor and are burdened, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28
J is on CQ (that lovely 24 hr duty). He will be home tomorrow morning, around the time the girls are getting up. And I am totally ok with him being gone for the day and night. 24 hours is no deal at all. But with the girls acting the way they were, and me acting the way I was... It was a very long day.
The sun was shining for most of the day though. P, K and I went for a little walk outside. Part of my plan was to get some fresh air in to them, part to change up the scenery and hopefully inspire an attitude change, and part to exhaust them so they would take a nap. Well, they got fresh air!
I didn't go to Mass today. I didn't take any time for myself and God. And I really think that was part of my issue today. Hindsight and all that, and the unopened bible that is staring at my right now. So I am going to dig in to the Word for a few minutes and pray that I wake up tomorrow refreshed.
"Come to me, all you who labor and are burdened, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28
Saturday, January 29, 2011
#61
Today we hit up the pool. We had a blast. The chicks were loving it. I was loving it. J was even doing good. He really can't swim. Still amazes me after 6 years! So I tried to give him some pointers. His biggest issue is that he is not comfortable, he is tense and all that stuff. One of these days he will do it.
Afterwards, we went to Burger King. Yeah, I know, gross. But I was really wanting french fries! So we ate there. And I ate way more than I needed to. And we went to the Shoppette (think 7-11) where I got candy, because I haven't had real candy lately. So, I ended up having peppermint tea and some pistachios for dinner! I am still full.
Thoughts of the move are getting to me. There is the logistics of it all that we need to work out. As of last week, Transportation told me it would be about 60 days for my HHG (all my stuff) to get from Germany to Ft Campbell, and about 50 days for my car (which is actually going to St Louis). So, do we want to be without our stuff and our car in Germany or the States?? I am thinking I will be fine without my stuff here, but not without my car. Unless I find someone willing to let me borrow their extra car for a month... Like I said, it's the logistics that are driving me crazy. I have called a cease fire on the house hunt. That was really making me crazy!
And I tried to convince the husband to go to Rome with me in February. How crazy is it that I cannot find someone to go with me?? Hopefully J will.
Afterwards, we went to Burger King. Yeah, I know, gross. But I was really wanting french fries! So we ate there. And I ate way more than I needed to. And we went to the Shoppette (think 7-11) where I got candy, because I haven't had real candy lately. So, I ended up having peppermint tea and some pistachios for dinner! I am still full.
Thoughts of the move are getting to me. There is the logistics of it all that we need to work out. As of last week, Transportation told me it would be about 60 days for my HHG (all my stuff) to get from Germany to Ft Campbell, and about 50 days for my car (which is actually going to St Louis). So, do we want to be without our stuff and our car in Germany or the States?? I am thinking I will be fine without my stuff here, but not without my car. Unless I find someone willing to let me borrow their extra car for a month... Like I said, it's the logistics that are driving me crazy. I have called a cease fire on the house hunt. That was really making me crazy!
And I tried to convince the husband to go to Rome with me in February. How crazy is it that I cannot find someone to go with me?? Hopefully J will.
Friday, January 28, 2011
#60
Things that irritated me today:
1. My alarm
2. The itch in my throat that turned in to an ache, and is currently a throb.
3. The husband's comment when he got home- 'The house looks nicer today.' I had simply loaded the dishwasher and picked up toys 50 times.
4. My beans tasted funny.
5. I weighed myself. Enough said.
Things that were good/great/awesome/made me happy in any way today:
1. My hubby got off early.
2. P and K were counting to 5 without my help.
3. My neighbor brought me tamales! Though this also goes in the previouss category because she was supposed to teach me.
4. I finally got to begin watching season 7 of NCIS. I know I am behind, but I am ok with that.
5. My girls took a nap.
6. I finally got the chance to sit and read a pretty good article about raising Catholic children. It was pretty good.
7. When J went to the store, he came home with non-minty cough drops. I don't like the minty stuff.
8. I got out of bed, was present, and overall in good health.
9. I got to play with my daughters and witness their beauty and brains.
10. I heard my husband's voice and felt his hand on my shoulder.
All in all, it was a good day.
1. My alarm
2. The itch in my throat that turned in to an ache, and is currently a throb.
3. The husband's comment when he got home- 'The house looks nicer today.' I had simply loaded the dishwasher and picked up toys 50 times.
4. My beans tasted funny.
5. I weighed myself. Enough said.
Things that were good/great/awesome/made me happy in any way today:
1. My hubby got off early.
2. P and K were counting to 5 without my help.
3. My neighbor brought me tamales! Though this also goes in the previouss category because she was supposed to teach me.
4. I finally got to begin watching season 7 of NCIS. I know I am behind, but I am ok with that.
5. My girls took a nap.
6. I finally got the chance to sit and read a pretty good article about raising Catholic children. It was pretty good.
7. When J went to the store, he came home with non-minty cough drops. I don't like the minty stuff.
8. I got out of bed, was present, and overall in good health.
9. I got to play with my daughters and witness their beauty and brains.
10. I heard my husband's voice and felt his hand on my shoulder.
All in all, it was a good day.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
#59
Today was a crazy day.
I set my alarm for 5Am. Then when it went off, I promptly turned it off and went back to sleep. Because come one, who wants to wake up at 5 in the morning?? So at 6 AM, when my husband was giving me a kiss goodbye, I realised my morning was going not going to include a workout, or any kind of quiet 'me' time. And I was right.
I got out of bed and in the shower. I got myself looking decent, then woke my girls up an hour before they usually get up. I somehow convinced them to eat breakfast that early, get clothes on, and get their hair done. I got us, and our bags, in the car, went on post and got gas. It is so not ok to leave your kids in the car while you run about 10 feet away to pay, so I asked a complete stranger to stand close to my locked car so the MPs wouldn't get mad. I know it makes no sense, but it saved me a few minutes. Then I got back in my car, went to a different post about 2 minutes away, and parked my car.
I was somehow five minutes early. So while the girls talked to one another, I got about three minutes to read my bible. Then the people I was meeting showed up, we loaded into cars and rolled out.
We drove a little over an hour to a total different Army post and had a 1.5 hr meeting. Then we got lunch at an ok Greek restaurant, and again loaded up and rolled out. About and hour and a half later, I was dragging my half asleep girls into the house and racing to the bathroom to pee.
Ten minutes after we got in the house, J walks through the door. "What are you doing here?" I so lovingly asked him. To which he said, "Hey, M(a soldier in his platoon) is having his going away party at the bowling alley, in about 2 minutes. You going?" So I put the girls and my shoes back on, load in to the car, and once more, roll out.
The girls are getting pretty good at this bowling thing. We have gone three times in the last month, which is crazy because the first time they went bowling was this month. But we all got in on the action today. And we did the Army's favorite thing- hurry up and wait. But when the ball finally got rolling, M said his piece and we were all sad to see him go. And he really made me proud, because he commented on how great J is at being a leader. Makes a girl happy.
Now I am tired. And ready for my bed. I plan on doing as little as possible. I am really thinking "The Little Mermaid" sounds like a plan for tomorrow morning. Ariel, Prince Eric, P, K, and me. Good stuff.
I set my alarm for 5Am. Then when it went off, I promptly turned it off and went back to sleep. Because come one, who wants to wake up at 5 in the morning?? So at 6 AM, when my husband was giving me a kiss goodbye, I realised my morning was going not going to include a workout, or any kind of quiet 'me' time. And I was right.
I got out of bed and in the shower. I got myself looking decent, then woke my girls up an hour before they usually get up. I somehow convinced them to eat breakfast that early, get clothes on, and get their hair done. I got us, and our bags, in the car, went on post and got gas. It is so not ok to leave your kids in the car while you run about 10 feet away to pay, so I asked a complete stranger to stand close to my locked car so the MPs wouldn't get mad. I know it makes no sense, but it saved me a few minutes. Then I got back in my car, went to a different post about 2 minutes away, and parked my car.
I was somehow five minutes early. So while the girls talked to one another, I got about three minutes to read my bible. Then the people I was meeting showed up, we loaded into cars and rolled out.
We drove a little over an hour to a total different Army post and had a 1.5 hr meeting. Then we got lunch at an ok Greek restaurant, and again loaded up and rolled out. About and hour and a half later, I was dragging my half asleep girls into the house and racing to the bathroom to pee.
Ten minutes after we got in the house, J walks through the door. "What are you doing here?" I so lovingly asked him. To which he said, "Hey, M(a soldier in his platoon) is having his going away party at the bowling alley, in about 2 minutes. You going?" So I put the girls and my shoes back on, load in to the car, and once more, roll out.
The girls are getting pretty good at this bowling thing. We have gone three times in the last month, which is crazy because the first time they went bowling was this month. But we all got in on the action today. And we did the Army's favorite thing- hurry up and wait. But when the ball finally got rolling, M said his piece and we were all sad to see him go. And he really made me proud, because he commented on how great J is at being a leader. Makes a girl happy.
Now I am tired. And ready for my bed. I plan on doing as little as possible. I am really thinking "The Little Mermaid" sounds like a plan for tomorrow morning. Ariel, Prince Eric, P, K, and me. Good stuff.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
#58
My head is killing me. I know exactly why it is hurting, but that doesn't help lessen the pain. I really just want to crawl into a dark hole and stay there until this pounding ceases. Oh wait, I have two kids and a husband that won't allow that.
The reason for the headache is emotions. I think I should just get rid of them altogether. I am so tired of being hurt and upset and infuriated and all those negative things.
This morning, I asked a girl I know how she was doing. Her husband had been home for a couple months, and I know the adjustments can be hard. Well, she essentially told me I had no idea what she was going through because my husband's deployment was not a combat deployment. Really? So that means I have no idea what it is like for the wife of a combat soldier? Because last time I checked, I have been around combat soldiers and their wives since 2003. And my husband may not have combat experience. But I bet your husband doesn't have any experience near hazardous materials. So do not judge me, lady. And do not apologize five minutes later to ease your conscience. Because your apology was so condescending and really made me want to punch you in the freaking face. Oh yeah, and all this happened in the Chapel during PWOC.
The rest of PWOC I couldn't get the whole conversation out of my head. I was steaming inside. And I think that effected how I saw the rest of my interactions for the morning. I felt like every time I had an opinion about our readings, everyone else felt I was wrong. I am sure it wasn't that way. And I sincerely love the women in my group. But all the logic in the world couldn't change my emotions then. Needless to say, by the time my husband got in the car at lunchtime, I was ready to explode. Poor guy made the mistake of asking how my morning went...
I am just tired of people getting their idea of who and what I am. I am not some little girl that doesn't know about life. I am not the chipper white girl, nor am I the scholarly sophisticated woman. I am the chick that grew up in the ghettos and learned that life isn't fair before I should have. I have been a wife of a soldier for 6 years now, and I have been immersed in the Army lifestyle for the last 7 years. I am a mother and a dog lover. I am a practicing Catholic and a total sinner.
I am more things, and less things. But I am willing to bet that I am not the girl you always thought I was. So stop judging me.
The reason for the headache is emotions. I think I should just get rid of them altogether. I am so tired of being hurt and upset and infuriated and all those negative things.
This morning, I asked a girl I know how she was doing. Her husband had been home for a couple months, and I know the adjustments can be hard. Well, she essentially told me I had no idea what she was going through because my husband's deployment was not a combat deployment. Really? So that means I have no idea what it is like for the wife of a combat soldier? Because last time I checked, I have been around combat soldiers and their wives since 2003. And my husband may not have combat experience. But I bet your husband doesn't have any experience near hazardous materials. So do not judge me, lady. And do not apologize five minutes later to ease your conscience. Because your apology was so condescending and really made me want to punch you in the freaking face. Oh yeah, and all this happened in the Chapel during PWOC.
The rest of PWOC I couldn't get the whole conversation out of my head. I was steaming inside. And I think that effected how I saw the rest of my interactions for the morning. I felt like every time I had an opinion about our readings, everyone else felt I was wrong. I am sure it wasn't that way. And I sincerely love the women in my group. But all the logic in the world couldn't change my emotions then. Needless to say, by the time my husband got in the car at lunchtime, I was ready to explode. Poor guy made the mistake of asking how my morning went...
I am just tired of people getting their idea of who and what I am. I am not some little girl that doesn't know about life. I am not the chipper white girl, nor am I the scholarly sophisticated woman. I am the chick that grew up in the ghettos and learned that life isn't fair before I should have. I have been a wife of a soldier for 6 years now, and I have been immersed in the Army lifestyle for the last 7 years. I am a mother and a dog lover. I am a practicing Catholic and a total sinner.
I am more things, and less things. But I am willing to bet that I am not the girl you always thought I was. So stop judging me.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
#57
I love my husband.
Really, I do. The man is so amazing. He loves me at my best and my worst. And I am so lucky to have him. And the man makes a great cheerleader!
I have been struggling with the weight/body image issues since I had my girls, two years ago. It is no one's fault but my own. I am lousy at sticking to a workout routine and diets are just unheard of! But the last few weeks I have really been cracking down on myself. I have been exercising a lot, way more than I ever have before. The eating habits are still completely horrible! But I am doing better, like no more snacking in the evening.
And my treadmill time. Man, I am so proud of myself tonight and yet so embarrassed. When J and I got married (6 years ago) I could run a 8:30-9 minute mile. I know, that is not amazing. That is pretty good for a non-athlete like myself though. Now? I couldn't run for 8 minutes straight is I tried. I know this, because I have tried. But the reason I am proud of myself is that tonight, I did 25 minutes total on the treadmill, and 5 minutes of that was jogging! Granted, they were not consecutive minutes, but I did the time and am really happy with myself. I pushed myself and am hoping to do better tomorrow. Yeah, that is also the embarrassing thing, that I am so out of shape that I cannot jog. I am changing that, though!
And the husband was great. He is in amazing shape. I think he has always been in amazing shape. It's not just that he is a soldier, because there are a lot of soldiers that are out of shape. He is just 'that guy' that physical fitness comes naturally to. So when I look at myself compared to him, its disgusting. However, he was proud of me tonight. He really doesn't care how pathetic I am. And he celebrates my achievements, no matter how petty they might seem.
Damn, I am lucky to have him.
Really, I do. The man is so amazing. He loves me at my best and my worst. And I am so lucky to have him. And the man makes a great cheerleader!
I have been struggling with the weight/body image issues since I had my girls, two years ago. It is no one's fault but my own. I am lousy at sticking to a workout routine and diets are just unheard of! But the last few weeks I have really been cracking down on myself. I have been exercising a lot, way more than I ever have before. The eating habits are still completely horrible! But I am doing better, like no more snacking in the evening.
And my treadmill time. Man, I am so proud of myself tonight and yet so embarrassed. When J and I got married (6 years ago) I could run a 8:30-9 minute mile. I know, that is not amazing. That is pretty good for a non-athlete like myself though. Now? I couldn't run for 8 minutes straight is I tried. I know this, because I have tried. But the reason I am proud of myself is that tonight, I did 25 minutes total on the treadmill, and 5 minutes of that was jogging! Granted, they were not consecutive minutes, but I did the time and am really happy with myself. I pushed myself and am hoping to do better tomorrow. Yeah, that is also the embarrassing thing, that I am so out of shape that I cannot jog. I am changing that, though!
And the husband was great. He is in amazing shape. I think he has always been in amazing shape. It's not just that he is a soldier, because there are a lot of soldiers that are out of shape. He is just 'that guy' that physical fitness comes naturally to. So when I look at myself compared to him, its disgusting. However, he was proud of me tonight. He really doesn't care how pathetic I am. And he celebrates my achievements, no matter how petty they might seem.
Damn, I am lucky to have him.
Monday, January 24, 2011
#56
Today was a good day. The girls' friend C and her mommy came over for some play time, my friend A dropped in for some chatting, and I had a generally good day.
I did a lot of travel dreaming. You know, plan a dream trip to anywhere. Look up airfare, hotels, sights to see, maps, all that good stuff. And I am really hoping the trip I planned today actually happens. I am hoping to go to Rome in a few weeks. Me, and the girls, and a friend. That is the thing I am looking for - a friend that wants to go, and actually will go! Hopefully, I will hear back from a friend tomorrow or Wednesday. If she ends up not going, then I will have to hurry up and find someone else to go with me!
The reason for a friend going is that I don't want to travel with just my girls. #1, it's always nice to have an extra set of hands! #2, I need someone to enjoy the trip with. #3, J is totally ok with me going without him- as long as I am not alone. So a travel buddy is not a want, but a need. And this trip is so last minute! But I am praying it works out. This Catholic girl really wants to see the Vatican.
And in more travel news, I want to go to Dublin in March. I of course wanted the bestest friend to meet me there. Because Ireland without her wouldn't be as awesome. But she isn't able to go. So, I am looking for anyone to go with me there. As much as I want to go to Dublin, I will be ok if I can't go right now. Like I said, Ireland without M will not be as amazing as I always imagine it. Oh, and the cruise. I thought it was cancelled, but now there is a chance it might work out. Ah, the uncertainty!
Yep, those were my thoughts today. Travel, travel, travel. Now if one of my trips actually works out I will be a happy girl.
Oh, I did Yoga for 25 minutes this morning, and treadmill for 25 minutes this evening. Oh yea, baby!
I did a lot of travel dreaming. You know, plan a dream trip to anywhere. Look up airfare, hotels, sights to see, maps, all that good stuff. And I am really hoping the trip I planned today actually happens. I am hoping to go to Rome in a few weeks. Me, and the girls, and a friend. That is the thing I am looking for - a friend that wants to go, and actually will go! Hopefully, I will hear back from a friend tomorrow or Wednesday. If she ends up not going, then I will have to hurry up and find someone else to go with me!
The reason for a friend going is that I don't want to travel with just my girls. #1, it's always nice to have an extra set of hands! #2, I need someone to enjoy the trip with. #3, J is totally ok with me going without him- as long as I am not alone. So a travel buddy is not a want, but a need. And this trip is so last minute! But I am praying it works out. This Catholic girl really wants to see the Vatican.
And in more travel news, I want to go to Dublin in March. I of course wanted the bestest friend to meet me there. Because Ireland without her wouldn't be as awesome. But she isn't able to go. So, I am looking for anyone to go with me there. As much as I want to go to Dublin, I will be ok if I can't go right now. Like I said, Ireland without M will not be as amazing as I always imagine it. Oh, and the cruise. I thought it was cancelled, but now there is a chance it might work out. Ah, the uncertainty!
Yep, those were my thoughts today. Travel, travel, travel. Now if one of my trips actually works out I will be a happy girl.
Oh, I did Yoga for 25 minutes this morning, and treadmill for 25 minutes this evening. Oh yea, baby!
Sunday, January 23, 2011
#55
A priest that quotes Band of Brothers in his homily is just awesome!
Fr. L is currently out of town, so the priest from a diff post came to us this morning. He was late, which kind of sucked. But over all, I really liked him. He had some good things to say.
"If there were only 5 priests left in the world, would you start encouraging young men to join the priesthood?" Well, yeah. But he went on to say you should start encouraging them now. Because we have more than 5 priests in the world, but we always need more. Especially in the military. And that whole line of conversation was really eye opening to me.
Following that great message, i came home to get into a little bit of a bickering match with my husband. Sometimes I think we are so childish, and I half expect the "No you're meaner" lines to start flying... But alles gut now.
And I am fighting to stay away. My friend K had a Military Ball to attend tonight. I know, on a Sunday, how weird. But her twins came over to hang out with us. They are 11, and the whole B crew loves them. But it is 11PM and I am ready for bed! My bedtime is usually 10, so I am half asleep and already dreading my 0600 wake-up! Surely K and her husband will be here soon.
Fr. L is currently out of town, so the priest from a diff post came to us this morning. He was late, which kind of sucked. But over all, I really liked him. He had some good things to say.
"If there were only 5 priests left in the world, would you start encouraging young men to join the priesthood?" Well, yeah. But he went on to say you should start encouraging them now. Because we have more than 5 priests in the world, but we always need more. Especially in the military. And that whole line of conversation was really eye opening to me.
Following that great message, i came home to get into a little bit of a bickering match with my husband. Sometimes I think we are so childish, and I half expect the "No you're meaner" lines to start flying... But alles gut now.
And I am fighting to stay away. My friend K had a Military Ball to attend tonight. I know, on a Sunday, how weird. But her twins came over to hang out with us. They are 11, and the whole B crew loves them. But it is 11PM and I am ready for bed! My bedtime is usually 10, so I am half asleep and already dreading my 0600 wake-up! Surely K and her husband will be here soon.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
#54
Today was P and K's friend's party. She shared a birthday with her older brother, how fun is that! So there were a few 6 year old kids to celebrate with E, and P and K to celebrate with C! It was a good afternoon! And I got pizza! I sincerely love pizza. lately, though, I don't eat it that often. So when I do eat it, I am just as happy as can be!
Before the party, we ran to the PXtra to get the dogs new food and water bowls, because their current bowls were getting funky. So while we were there I of course got a few more things. Silly putty, because who doesn't love silly putty?! And this super cool map of the USA, that tells you facts about each state when you press it. It said ages 3+, so I figure I can just put it up until the girls' birthday in Nov, but I had to buy it!
Oh, and I bought myself a puzzle. I haven't done a puzzle in a few years. I love them though. So I got one. Maybe I will work on it tonight.
And we finished 'The Pacific' today. I gotta say, I didn't fall in love with it nearly as much as I did 'Band of Brothers'. But lets face it, not many things can compare to "BOB". "The Pacific" was good. It showed you how hard the Marines had it, what kind of things they faced, and how they coped. I really liked the last episode, because you got to see how they felt on VJ Day, and how their lives where when they got home.
Which all got me thinking... How great was it that the war was ended one day, and that meant the violence was pretty much done! Can you ever imagine a day when the violence will cease in the Middle East? It breaks my heart to say that I really cannot see that happening.
But I was also reminded of how extremely lucky my military family is right now. We do face deployments and long separations. But they come home for R&R after a few months, and only stay gone for (around!) a year. The guys fighting the Japanese in WWII were gone for FOUR YEARS! Can you imagine not seeing your husband for four years? Getting a letter every so ofter, if you were lucky. Not hearing his voice, seeing his face, feeling his hand in yours. And we think one year is bad. Heck, its not even one year, because R&R breaks that up. We are so lucky. It was nice to get that reminder.
Before the party, we ran to the PXtra to get the dogs new food and water bowls, because their current bowls were getting funky. So while we were there I of course got a few more things. Silly putty, because who doesn't love silly putty?! And this super cool map of the USA, that tells you facts about each state when you press it. It said ages 3+, so I figure I can just put it up until the girls' birthday in Nov, but I had to buy it!
Oh, and I bought myself a puzzle. I haven't done a puzzle in a few years. I love them though. So I got one. Maybe I will work on it tonight.
And we finished 'The Pacific' today. I gotta say, I didn't fall in love with it nearly as much as I did 'Band of Brothers'. But lets face it, not many things can compare to "BOB". "The Pacific" was good. It showed you how hard the Marines had it, what kind of things they faced, and how they coped. I really liked the last episode, because you got to see how they felt on VJ Day, and how their lives where when they got home.
Which all got me thinking... How great was it that the war was ended one day, and that meant the violence was pretty much done! Can you ever imagine a day when the violence will cease in the Middle East? It breaks my heart to say that I really cannot see that happening.
But I was also reminded of how extremely lucky my military family is right now. We do face deployments and long separations. But they come home for R&R after a few months, and only stay gone for (around!) a year. The guys fighting the Japanese in WWII were gone for FOUR YEARS! Can you imagine not seeing your husband for four years? Getting a letter every so ofter, if you were lucky. Not hearing his voice, seeing his face, feeling his hand in yours. And we think one year is bad. Heck, its not even one year, because R&R breaks that up. We are so lucky. It was nice to get that reminder.
Friday, January 21, 2011
#53
So, for the last three days I have done two workouts a day, yoga in the morning and treadmill at night. I am not an exercise person. I am exhausted!!! Seriously, I fell asleep on my couch about 5 seconds after talking to my husband.
The girls were a handful today. They woke up at 6am (but stayed in bed until close to 7), they didn't take a nap. Listening was an unheard of thing in our house, but pushing sisters was totally ok. Gah! But then they were so sweet to one another, and they say the best things, and are getting so darn smart!
For their 2nd birthday, we bought them Leapfrog laptops. At first I was worried they would be a waste of money. But almost immediately, the girls were loving them and actually learning stuff. Two months later, the laptops are still a favorite toy, so I feel justified in buying them. And P and K know 'their letter'! When P presses the 'p' on her laptop, it says 'that's the first letter of your name!' K's laptop does the same thing for 'k'. They both get a kick out of it, and can press 'their letter' when you ask them to. I know, they rock!
I am getting frustrated. I keep trying to talk to J about the move, things like where we are going to live, if we are going to get a second car, what type of vacation we are going to take, when we are going to have our stuff packed up, when we are going to schedule our inspection, and on and on. You get my point, we have a lot to discuss. Well, the guy I love doesn't want to deal with any of it, or he just doesn't want to sit still long enough to think about it, one of those two. Either way, I am getting a little bit antsy about it all, but I can't exactly make these decisions on my own!
The girls were a handful today. They woke up at 6am (but stayed in bed until close to 7), they didn't take a nap. Listening was an unheard of thing in our house, but pushing sisters was totally ok. Gah! But then they were so sweet to one another, and they say the best things, and are getting so darn smart!
For their 2nd birthday, we bought them Leapfrog laptops. At first I was worried they would be a waste of money. But almost immediately, the girls were loving them and actually learning stuff. Two months later, the laptops are still a favorite toy, so I feel justified in buying them. And P and K know 'their letter'! When P presses the 'p' on her laptop, it says 'that's the first letter of your name!' K's laptop does the same thing for 'k'. They both get a kick out of it, and can press 'their letter' when you ask them to. I know, they rock!
I am getting frustrated. I keep trying to talk to J about the move, things like where we are going to live, if we are going to get a second car, what type of vacation we are going to take, when we are going to have our stuff packed up, when we are going to schedule our inspection, and on and on. You get my point, we have a lot to discuss. Well, the guy I love doesn't want to deal with any of it, or he just doesn't want to sit still long enough to think about it, one of those two. Either way, I am getting a little bit antsy about it all, but I can't exactly make these decisions on my own!
Thursday, January 20, 2011
#52
I watched Toy Story 3 today!
Oh man, that was a great movie! I loved the original, and the sequel was pretty great. But I just hadn't gotten around to watching the latest and greatest story starring Woody and Buzz.
Until today. My neighbor, B, dropped it off last night. So this morning, the chicks and I cuddled on the couch. We laughed, I teared up, the girls loved the bear and baby and doggy, and they referred to Woody as 'Toy story'. It was great.
Really, I was so loving this movie. It made me sad. It made me laugh. I thought about my childhood toys and wonder about my girls toys. In case you aren't getting it, I really enjoyed this movie!
I really enjoyed my trip to the commissary as well. No, your eyes are not deceiving you. J somehow got off work a little early. So he stayed at the house with the chicks and I got my shopping done. There were a few things I couldn't get, like fresh bread. But besides those little things, I got everything for a lot of dinners! I think... I probably forgot stuff and will have to go back to the store multiple times. But I think I did pretty good.
Oh man, that was a great movie! I loved the original, and the sequel was pretty great. But I just hadn't gotten around to watching the latest and greatest story starring Woody and Buzz.
Until today. My neighbor, B, dropped it off last night. So this morning, the chicks and I cuddled on the couch. We laughed, I teared up, the girls loved the bear and baby and doggy, and they referred to Woody as 'Toy story'. It was great.
Really, I was so loving this movie. It made me sad. It made me laugh. I thought about my childhood toys and wonder about my girls toys. In case you aren't getting it, I really enjoyed this movie!
I really enjoyed my trip to the commissary as well. No, your eyes are not deceiving you. J somehow got off work a little early. So he stayed at the house with the chicks and I got my shopping done. There were a few things I couldn't get, like fresh bread. But besides those little things, I got everything for a lot of dinners! I think... I probably forgot stuff and will have to go back to the store multiple times. But I think I did pretty good.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
#51
So, I am giving myself a huge pat on the back! I woke up this morning and did some yoga. And this evening I got on my treadmill! That is what you can call a '2-a-day' my friends.
Remember, I hate exercise. But I have this crazy bulge going on. Really. I am bigger now than I have been in a while. I feel like I have this '1 step forward, 2 steps back' thing going on with my weight. Since I had my girls, that is. Before I got pregnant, with twins, and gave birth, I didn't have self-image issues. I was quite happy with my body, with my looks in general. But for the last two years and two months, oh man. Things have been bad in the confidence dept. Funny, I was once told I was cocky.
So I am trying something new. J actually suggested it, because he is awesome in this dept. I am going to try the reward system. This has never really been my thing. Well, weight issues have never been my thing either. So we are going to try it out. If i exercise twice a day for 4 days a week, I get to bake something, anything. If I do not exercise twice a day for 4 days a week, there will be no baking that week. And that will make me so sad.
And please let me just say: This is not about the number on the scale. Heck, I don't even know what that number is, I am too scared to check. This is about ME. How I feel, how I see myself. I do not like what I see in the mirror. I do not like how my clothes feel. And that is not me, damn it. So I am taking myself back. By force, because that is the only way I will exercise!!!
Tomorrow I plan to do the same thing. I will wake up, yoga it up, and when my girls go to bed I will hop on the treadmill. I am not pushing myself to the extreme. I am not pushing myself as hard as I should. But I am trying to change. Words of encouragement, and when I fail calling me a sissy, might help!
Remember, I hate exercise. But I have this crazy bulge going on. Really. I am bigger now than I have been in a while. I feel like I have this '1 step forward, 2 steps back' thing going on with my weight. Since I had my girls, that is. Before I got pregnant, with twins, and gave birth, I didn't have self-image issues. I was quite happy with my body, with my looks in general. But for the last two years and two months, oh man. Things have been bad in the confidence dept. Funny, I was once told I was cocky.
So I am trying something new. J actually suggested it, because he is awesome in this dept. I am going to try the reward system. This has never really been my thing. Well, weight issues have never been my thing either. So we are going to try it out. If i exercise twice a day for 4 days a week, I get to bake something, anything. If I do not exercise twice a day for 4 days a week, there will be no baking that week. And that will make me so sad.
And please let me just say: This is not about the number on the scale. Heck, I don't even know what that number is, I am too scared to check. This is about ME. How I feel, how I see myself. I do not like what I see in the mirror. I do not like how my clothes feel. And that is not me, damn it. So I am taking myself back. By force, because that is the only way I will exercise!!!
Tomorrow I plan to do the same thing. I will wake up, yoga it up, and when my girls go to bed I will hop on the treadmill. I am not pushing myself to the extreme. I am not pushing myself as hard as I should. But I am trying to change. Words of encouragement, and when I fail calling me a sissy, might help!
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
#50
That's right! This is my fiftieth post! How awesome is that? I was hoping to write something actually worth reading today, but...
I fell asleep on the couch a couple hours ago, and just woke up to stumble to the computer, post something, so I could stumble to bed.
We went to playgroup this morning! The girls were so happy to go play, especially because they got to see their friend C. After playing, we went to McD's and played some more. It was pretty great. They were mostly well behaved and when we got home they continued on in that fashion. So alles gut!
I fell asleep on the couch a couple hours ago, and just woke up to stumble to the computer, post something, so I could stumble to bed.
We went to playgroup this morning! The girls were so happy to go play, especially because they got to see their friend C. After playing, we went to McD's and played some more. It was pretty great. They were mostly well behaved and when we got home they continued on in that fashion. So alles gut!
Monday, January 17, 2011
#49
I had a good day today!
I went to Cheb, Czech Republic today with my friend G. Really, G and I are friends because our two year old daughters are friends. And that totally makes me happy that my girls have a friend. Especially because her mom is pretty awesome!
So yeah, we went to Cheb, which is a lot like Mexico, or most Chinatowns. Think knockoff handbags and ghetto t shirts. It was great! I got a couple bags, one of which is a total fake Coach. But I thought it was cute, and there is no way in Hell I would spend a ton of money on a freakin' purse. So knockoffs suit me just fine, thanks. When I got home, J said it looks nice, kind of classy. Hey, hey!
But we also went to some real stores. This was the second time I have gone to Cheb. The first time was back in August, and I stumbled upon this little store that sells crystal and ceramics. I got this cute set of 6 teacups/saucers. I love them, they are ceramic hand painted. And they are just cute. Well, today we found this store again, and I got a three tiered serving tray that matches my teacups! Actually, I am pretty sure it matches. See, I still have the tea set boxed up, along with all my crystal, and my cuckoo clock, and my Polish pottery... It is all wrapped and boxed up because this house is too small to accommodate it all!! But back to today, I think the tray matches! And it was cute!
We ate lunch, and got chocolates and pastries from random stores. Ordering food is always a fun experience in a foreign country! Even when they have menus in English, they aren't really in English. So much gets lost in the translation. So when your food comes to the table, there is always some anticipation! Which is fun. And not always good. But it's ok. I just call it a 'fun experience', no matter what!
The drive there and back, about 2 hrs each way, was so foggy. Hey, I am from the Bay Area of California. I can handle fog. Actually, I like the fog. What I do not like is driving in the fog around other people that can't handle it. I was getting so mad at people that had their high beams on. Come on guys, driving in fog when the person coming towards you is dead set on blinding you, that's just not fun for anyone. Thankfully, I got home in one piece!
I got a nice break from the craziness of J, K, and P. I love those the people so much. But lately, we have all kind of been bumping heads. So today was a nice, rejuvenating day for me. I got to have adult time with a great girl, I got to spend money on pretty things, and I got to breathe. I didn't once ask "Did you go potty?" or say anything remotely close to "Get your finger out of your nose" or "If you hit your sister one more time, I am going to beat you, Kid". Can you believe that?! A whole day without Mommy language!
And the best part? I got to read the bedtime stories and give good night kisses.
I went to Cheb, Czech Republic today with my friend G. Really, G and I are friends because our two year old daughters are friends. And that totally makes me happy that my girls have a friend. Especially because her mom is pretty awesome!
So yeah, we went to Cheb, which is a lot like Mexico, or most Chinatowns. Think knockoff handbags and ghetto t shirts. It was great! I got a couple bags, one of which is a total fake Coach. But I thought it was cute, and there is no way in Hell I would spend a ton of money on a freakin' purse. So knockoffs suit me just fine, thanks. When I got home, J said it looks nice, kind of classy. Hey, hey!
But we also went to some real stores. This was the second time I have gone to Cheb. The first time was back in August, and I stumbled upon this little store that sells crystal and ceramics. I got this cute set of 6 teacups/saucers. I love them, they are ceramic hand painted. And they are just cute. Well, today we found this store again, and I got a three tiered serving tray that matches my teacups! Actually, I am pretty sure it matches. See, I still have the tea set boxed up, along with all my crystal, and my cuckoo clock, and my Polish pottery... It is all wrapped and boxed up because this house is too small to accommodate it all!! But back to today, I think the tray matches! And it was cute!
We ate lunch, and got chocolates and pastries from random stores. Ordering food is always a fun experience in a foreign country! Even when they have menus in English, they aren't really in English. So much gets lost in the translation. So when your food comes to the table, there is always some anticipation! Which is fun. And not always good. But it's ok. I just call it a 'fun experience', no matter what!
The drive there and back, about 2 hrs each way, was so foggy. Hey, I am from the Bay Area of California. I can handle fog. Actually, I like the fog. What I do not like is driving in the fog around other people that can't handle it. I was getting so mad at people that had their high beams on. Come on guys, driving in fog when the person coming towards you is dead set on blinding you, that's just not fun for anyone. Thankfully, I got home in one piece!
I got a nice break from the craziness of J, K, and P. I love those the people so much. But lately, we have all kind of been bumping heads. So today was a nice, rejuvenating day for me. I got to have adult time with a great girl, I got to spend money on pretty things, and I got to breathe. I didn't once ask "Did you go potty?" or say anything remotely close to "Get your finger out of your nose" or "If you hit your sister one more time, I am going to beat you, Kid". Can you believe that?! A whole day without Mommy language!
And the best part? I got to read the bedtime stories and give good night kisses.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
#48
Here I sit again. At my dinner table, in a not so comfortable chair, typing on a laptop that cannot be unplugged. That's kind of my life.
I was thinking I would post something about the readings from Mass this morning. Then, sadly, I realized that I had totally blanked on what the readings ever were. Isn't that so sad? I was there. I took an active role and was actually present. But, less than 12 hours later, I do not remember the words that were spoken.
I could blame it on P and K. Lets face it, two two year old girls do hinder one's attention span. But they weren't too bad this morning. Yeah, as we were getting to the end of the service, they were horrible. But towards the beginning, the actual reading part, they were pretty great.
And like I said, I was there and paying attention. So I guess the blame lies solely on my oddly shaped shoulders.
I just couldn't hold the words in my mind. I am sure they were thought-provoking and meaningful- after all, they were from the Living Word. But today just wasn't a day for me to be meaningful, I guess. Maybe tomorrow?
I decided to take my monkeys for a walk this afternoon. We have been having amazingly great weather for a few days now. And they weren't taking a nap, so... We got our shoes on and headed out the door. At the same time, J was pulling in the driveway. So he tagged along. We just walked down the road a little way and then turned around and headed back home. The sun was shining, but it was still chilly! Temp in the 40s is super warm for German winters, but it is still cold!
It was nice to get out of the house and just go for a walk though.
I was thinking I would post something about the readings from Mass this morning. Then, sadly, I realized that I had totally blanked on what the readings ever were. Isn't that so sad? I was there. I took an active role and was actually present. But, less than 12 hours later, I do not remember the words that were spoken.
I could blame it on P and K. Lets face it, two two year old girls do hinder one's attention span. But they weren't too bad this morning. Yeah, as we were getting to the end of the service, they were horrible. But towards the beginning, the actual reading part, they were pretty great.
And like I said, I was there and paying attention. So I guess the blame lies solely on my oddly shaped shoulders.
I just couldn't hold the words in my mind. I am sure they were thought-provoking and meaningful- after all, they were from the Living Word. But today just wasn't a day for me to be meaningful, I guess. Maybe tomorrow?
I decided to take my monkeys for a walk this afternoon. We have been having amazingly great weather for a few days now. And they weren't taking a nap, so... We got our shoes on and headed out the door. At the same time, J was pulling in the driveway. So he tagged along. We just walked down the road a little way and then turned around and headed back home. The sun was shining, but it was still chilly! Temp in the 40s is super warm for German winters, but it is still cold!
It was nice to get out of the house and just go for a walk though.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
#47
P, K, and I went to a birthday party today. The birthday boy and girl are a couple months younger than my girls, and oh yeah they are twins. Honestly, P and K aren't friends with these kids. And I am little more than an aquantince of the mom. But we went and had a good time.
J stayed at home. And man did that irritate me today. I know he is not a fan of kids. He is not a fan of adults either, to be honest. But come on, guy. Part of being a parent is doing things you have absolutely no desire to do. One of his reasons for not going was that he didn't know the people that would be there and he would have no one to talk to. Well, hey, guess what. I was the only one there without a spouse! It's bad enough when he is gone and can't be there. But not being there because he chose to stay at home really rubbed me the wrong way.
Other than that, today was another day. I felt like a failure as a mother and wife, and know there are a million ways I could have done things better. I am realizing more and moree everyday that I am not the person I thought I was. I am also not the person I want to be.
So I am going to try to be that girl. Somehow.
J stayed at home. And man did that irritate me today. I know he is not a fan of kids. He is not a fan of adults either, to be honest. But come on, guy. Part of being a parent is doing things you have absolutely no desire to do. One of his reasons for not going was that he didn't know the people that would be there and he would have no one to talk to. Well, hey, guess what. I was the only one there without a spouse! It's bad enough when he is gone and can't be there. But not being there because he chose to stay at home really rubbed me the wrong way.
Other than that, today was another day. I felt like a failure as a mother and wife, and know there are a million ways I could have done things better. I am realizing more and moree everyday that I am not the person I thought I was. I am also not the person I want to be.
So I am going to try to be that girl. Somehow.
Friday, January 14, 2011
#46
Today, J was off work. Gotta love the Army and their 4-days. For those civies, we get four days off for most holidays instead of three, one a month. They are really great if you have money to go places and your husband puts in a mileage pass! (Mileage passes are required to go outside a 200K or 120mile radius)
My husband did not turn in a pass. So we weren't able to go to Prague for the day like I had wanted. We weren't able to go to Munich. We could have gone to Bamberg, but then we didn't. Instead, we stayed at home, spending most of the day in pajamas watching CSI:NY and dealing with two two year old girls.
Man, they are really testing me lately. They try to be so independent. They have attitudes. They throw fits. They try to run away from me. And I am kind of wondering what I should do now. Time outs are effective, but also a huge fight. Spanking shocks them, but them makes they cry which just adds to the drama. Ignoring them doesn't seem to do anything. I am just not having fun with all this. I love my girls, but the way they are acting lately is not a joyful occasion for me.
And at the end of Day 46, I am trying to figure out why exactly I am still blogging... and I am being such a Debbie Downer. This stage in my life is really getting me down.
But as always, tomorrow is a new day.
My husband did not turn in a pass. So we weren't able to go to Prague for the day like I had wanted. We weren't able to go to Munich. We could have gone to Bamberg, but then we didn't. Instead, we stayed at home, spending most of the day in pajamas watching CSI:NY and dealing with two two year old girls.
Man, they are really testing me lately. They try to be so independent. They have attitudes. They throw fits. They try to run away from me. And I am kind of wondering what I should do now. Time outs are effective, but also a huge fight. Spanking shocks them, but them makes they cry which just adds to the drama. Ignoring them doesn't seem to do anything. I am just not having fun with all this. I love my girls, but the way they are acting lately is not a joyful occasion for me.
And at the end of Day 46, I am trying to figure out why exactly I am still blogging... and I am being such a Debbie Downer. This stage in my life is really getting me down.
But as always, tomorrow is a new day.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
#45
I cleaned my oven with baking soda and water. It worked way better than I thought it would. I gotta say, I am one of those people that thinks about cleaning my oven about as often as I think about vacationing on Pluto. So my oven was pretty gross. Now, not so gross! Still a few spots that I need to work on. But over all, very happy with the good old arm and hammer.
Also did laundry and cleaned the bathroom. As I was finishing the bathroom, my girls woke up from their nap. I went in to their room and got a crib full of poo. Yeah, they had taken their diapers off, and one of my little angels made a runny mess. So I added a pile o' sheets and washcloths to my previously empty laundry pile and re cleaned my tub.
I checked my email and found out there was a $400 charge on my credit card. Almost had a heart attack. I knew I hadn't spent $400. I honestly don't think I have spent $5 in the last 2 weeks. Called the husband, and was informed that was the total for our car repairs. Happy we weren't being robbed, not so happy we had to pay that much for something so little.
And that was about how my day went. Pancakes for dinner and good night kisses from my baby girls. So it was a good day.
Also did laundry and cleaned the bathroom. As I was finishing the bathroom, my girls woke up from their nap. I went in to their room and got a crib full of poo. Yeah, they had taken their diapers off, and one of my little angels made a runny mess. So I added a pile o' sheets and washcloths to my previously empty laundry pile and re cleaned my tub.
I checked my email and found out there was a $400 charge on my credit card. Almost had a heart attack. I knew I hadn't spent $400. I honestly don't think I have spent $5 in the last 2 weeks. Called the husband, and was informed that was the total for our car repairs. Happy we weren't being robbed, not so happy we had to pay that much for something so little.
And that was about how my day went. Pancakes for dinner and good night kisses from my baby girls. So it was a good day.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
#44
A few hours ago, I sat down to post about my day. I was in a rotten mood and vented on here. Then, instead of hitting "Publish post" I decided to save it.
It's the little things in life that make all the difference!
Don't get me wrong, I am still in a pretty not great mood. I had a mostly bad day and wanted to get it off my chest. My girls were misbehaving and I didn't feel like I was getting as much support from my husband as I needed. None of that has changed in the last 3 hours!
However, posting my problems on here, or Facebook, does not take them away. It solves nothing and would probably only lead to more problems. People read, and then talk, and talk some more.
Remember that game "Telephone"? You whisper in to some one's ear, and then they whisper to someone else. by the time the circle is completed, the message is jumbled beyond belief. Facebook and blogs are just the new application of this very old game. And I just don't want to play that game.
And then I thought how annoying it is that I even have to think this way. I shouldn't have to watch what I say on my own dang blog! But I do. Because I talk so much and so loud, people seem to think it is ok to put words in my mouth. Which annoys me and I wish I could just graduate from 8th grade already. But I guess that won't be happening.
I love my husband and I love my children. They all give me attitude and migraines and drive me crazy. But they only get to me as much as they do because I love them so much. So yeah, I had a crummy day. It wasn't really any one's fault, just a general crummy day. And tomorrow I will have a clean slate.
It's the little things in life that make all the difference!
Don't get me wrong, I am still in a pretty not great mood. I had a mostly bad day and wanted to get it off my chest. My girls were misbehaving and I didn't feel like I was getting as much support from my husband as I needed. None of that has changed in the last 3 hours!
However, posting my problems on here, or Facebook, does not take them away. It solves nothing and would probably only lead to more problems. People read, and then talk, and talk some more.
Remember that game "Telephone"? You whisper in to some one's ear, and then they whisper to someone else. by the time the circle is completed, the message is jumbled beyond belief. Facebook and blogs are just the new application of this very old game. And I just don't want to play that game.
And then I thought how annoying it is that I even have to think this way. I shouldn't have to watch what I say on my own dang blog! But I do. Because I talk so much and so loud, people seem to think it is ok to put words in my mouth. Which annoys me and I wish I could just graduate from 8th grade already. But I guess that won't be happening.
I love my husband and I love my children. They all give me attitude and migraines and drive me crazy. But they only get to me as much as they do because I love them so much. So yeah, I had a crummy day. It wasn't really any one's fault, just a general crummy day. And tomorrow I will have a clean slate.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
#43
I woke up this morning, grumbled as I searched for my sports bra and shoes, and stumbled to the computer to check emails before I got my unhappy butt on the treadmill. And while I was 'stalking' my friends on Facebook, I saw the new of Major Dick Winters' death. Man, that sucks.
For those of you that don't know, Major Dick Winters was the commanding officer of E Company, 506th, 101st Airborne. You know, Band of Brothers on HBO. Major Winters was such an amazing soldier, an amazing leader. He was a hero.
On a happy note, today is J and my anniversary. Yep, we have been married for 6 years now. And this morning, we both totally forgot it was our anniversary! I remembered around 10am, after I had dropped him off at work and was at play group. And we did nothing spectacular. Our celebration consisted of laughing at ourselves because we both forgot. No flowers, no chocolate, no candle-lit dinner. Heck, I didn't even get a card.
A couple weeks ago, I was irked about our lack of celebrations for our marriage. Really, we have never done anything to specifically celebrate our marriage. We didn't even have a wedding or a honeymoon. We got married on his lunch hour. And when he is actually home for our anniversary, the most extravagant thing we have ever done if go out to eat. Pathetic.
But you know, part of me is ok with that. I mean, isn't the fact that we have survived another year together celebration enough?! We still love one another. We still plan on spending the rest of our lives together. I still think he is sexy. He still likes the way I cook. And i doubt there is anyone else on the planet that would deal with our little quirks. So maybe we don't need cards, or flowers, or the perfect present.
With that said, if you talk to J - Tell him next year I want a trip to D.C. for our anniversary!!
For those of you that don't know, Major Dick Winters was the commanding officer of E Company, 506th, 101st Airborne. You know, Band of Brothers on HBO. Major Winters was such an amazing soldier, an amazing leader. He was a hero.
On a happy note, today is J and my anniversary. Yep, we have been married for 6 years now. And this morning, we both totally forgot it was our anniversary! I remembered around 10am, after I had dropped him off at work and was at play group. And we did nothing spectacular. Our celebration consisted of laughing at ourselves because we both forgot. No flowers, no chocolate, no candle-lit dinner. Heck, I didn't even get a card.
A couple weeks ago, I was irked about our lack of celebrations for our marriage. Really, we have never done anything to specifically celebrate our marriage. We didn't even have a wedding or a honeymoon. We got married on his lunch hour. And when he is actually home for our anniversary, the most extravagant thing we have ever done if go out to eat. Pathetic.
But you know, part of me is ok with that. I mean, isn't the fact that we have survived another year together celebration enough?! We still love one another. We still plan on spending the rest of our lives together. I still think he is sexy. He still likes the way I cook. And i doubt there is anyone else on the planet that would deal with our little quirks. So maybe we don't need cards, or flowers, or the perfect present.
With that said, if you talk to J - Tell him next year I want a trip to D.C. for our anniversary!!
Monday, January 10, 2011
#42
I didn't sleep at all last night. Not even 5 lousy minutes. So I have currently been awake for about 36 hours. I am not happy. I feel nauseated, and my eyes burn, and I have a headache. I do not like this. I love sleep.
And why the heck has my life suddenly aquired the title "Sleep Troubles"? This is just getting ridiculous. Come on!
I was actually productive, considering my zombie impression. I got on my treadmill around 5 am. Yeah, it sucked. But I got it over with an hour before my alarm went off! I made blueberry muffins, showered and cleaned. I went to a board meeting. I cleaned some more. I finished my book. I made shrimp pasta for dinner. And look at me, blogging with half a brain.
You know, when J has CQ (24 hr duty) he gets to come home and sleep. Yeah, he has to be awake for 24 hrs, which sucks. But then he gets a day off to recover. He shuts the door and the girls don't even really know he is home. Why the heck didn't I get a recovery day? And you know he didn't eet home until after 6pm tonight.
P and K are splashing in the tub, J is chatting with them, and I am watching the clock. As soon as those little girls are in bed, I will be sprinting to my cuddly, warm refuge. Oh man, I cannot wait to close my eyes.
And why the heck has my life suddenly aquired the title "Sleep Troubles"? This is just getting ridiculous. Come on!
I was actually productive, considering my zombie impression. I got on my treadmill around 5 am. Yeah, it sucked. But I got it over with an hour before my alarm went off! I made blueberry muffins, showered and cleaned. I went to a board meeting. I cleaned some more. I finished my book. I made shrimp pasta for dinner. And look at me, blogging with half a brain.
You know, when J has CQ (24 hr duty) he gets to come home and sleep. Yeah, he has to be awake for 24 hrs, which sucks. But then he gets a day off to recover. He shuts the door and the girls don't even really know he is home. Why the heck didn't I get a recovery day? And you know he didn't eet home until after 6pm tonight.
P and K are splashing in the tub, J is chatting with them, and I am watching the clock. As soon as those little girls are in bed, I will be sprinting to my cuddly, warm refuge. Oh man, I cannot wait to close my eyes.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
#41
As the weekend draws to a close, I can't help but feel absolutely exhausted!
The hubs let me sleep in this morning, which was so very much appreciated. He's pretty cool sometimes. And with the girls being so completely unreliable about their naps, I feel like I am running ragged. So the extra couple hours this morning was pretty much the greatest thing since microwave popcorn.
Mass was great. Matthew 3:13-17 was the Gospel reading. John baptizes Jesus. I LOVE it. Well, Matthew is my favorite Gospel. But that particular part of Matty is just something that I love to read and never tire of. The perfect man, without sin, is not asking but demanding that an ordinary man, also known as his cousin, baptize him... Yeah, that's just amazing. And then you get the trinity together - Jesus, God's voice, and the Holy Spirit in the form of a dove. Awe Some.
The afternoon was pretty great too. P and K were invited to their friend's birthday party at the bowling alley! Yeah! I love the family that invited us, they are so great. So we got to spend time with them, and many other great people, and the girls had their first bowling experience.
And they got to wear bowling shoes! They are such shoe girls, so that just made their day. I could almost see their thoughts: 'Special shoes for bowling? Ok, that might be the greatest thing ever!' They thought bowling was pretty cool too. And I say again, the H family is great. So we were just happy to be there and help them celebrate.
So, recap of my weekend: library, swimming, Mass, bowling, and a few million little things in between! I am tired. But so full of Thanksgiving for my blessings!
The hubs let me sleep in this morning, which was so very much appreciated. He's pretty cool sometimes. And with the girls being so completely unreliable about their naps, I feel like I am running ragged. So the extra couple hours this morning was pretty much the greatest thing since microwave popcorn.
Mass was great. Matthew 3:13-17 was the Gospel reading. John baptizes Jesus. I LOVE it. Well, Matthew is my favorite Gospel. But that particular part of Matty is just something that I love to read and never tire of. The perfect man, without sin, is not asking but demanding that an ordinary man, also known as his cousin, baptize him... Yeah, that's just amazing. And then you get the trinity together - Jesus, God's voice, and the Holy Spirit in the form of a dove. Awe Some.
The afternoon was pretty great too. P and K were invited to their friend's birthday party at the bowling alley! Yeah! I love the family that invited us, they are so great. So we got to spend time with them, and many other great people, and the girls had their first bowling experience.
And they got to wear bowling shoes! They are such shoe girls, so that just made their day. I could almost see their thoughts: 'Special shoes for bowling? Ok, that might be the greatest thing ever!' They thought bowling was pretty cool too. And I say again, the H family is great. So we were just happy to be there and help them celebrate.
So, recap of my weekend: library, swimming, Mass, bowling, and a few million little things in between! I am tired. But so full of Thanksgiving for my blessings!
Saturday, January 8, 2011
#40
Oh man, am I tired.
We just got back from the swimming pool. It's 8:45 PM. We had so much fun! But let me back up...
Today, I went to the library. All four of us were going to go, so the girls could pick out a few books as well. But J decided he would rather NOT! So, I got to go by myself, which was just great for me! I was there for over an hour and got 6 books! 3 random novels, 2 parenting books, and one book about a Vietnam Vet's journey back to Vietnam. I am excited to read them all! I also got a Veggie Tales and sign language videos for the girls. Oh, and I ran in to a friend and got to talk to her for a few minutes without chasing my kids. Great day!
After nap time, w gave the girls dinner (PB&Js and a banana). Then, we got bathing suits on and went to the pool! This was our first time going at night, and it was fun! The girls were so excited because the lights on the bottom of the kiddie pool changed colors. And their friends were there too! J and I knew the friends would be there, but we hadn't told P and K, just in case they couldn't show up. So yeah, it was a great few hours of water. The girls did great, by the way which makes me so very happy.
I am almost done readying Fahrenheit 451. Can you believe I have never read it? Well, I should finish it tonight. And I am blown away by how different the writing styles were when it was written. The style reminds me a lot of 1984, which I like. It just takes a minute to adjust your brain to it. But I gotta say, this book is not as amazing as I thought it would be. Why exactly is it considered 'a classic'??
We just got back from the swimming pool. It's 8:45 PM. We had so much fun! But let me back up...
Today, I went to the library. All four of us were going to go, so the girls could pick out a few books as well. But J decided he would rather NOT! So, I got to go by myself, which was just great for me! I was there for over an hour and got 6 books! 3 random novels, 2 parenting books, and one book about a Vietnam Vet's journey back to Vietnam. I am excited to read them all! I also got a Veggie Tales and sign language videos for the girls. Oh, and I ran in to a friend and got to talk to her for a few minutes without chasing my kids. Great day!
After nap time, w gave the girls dinner (PB&Js and a banana). Then, we got bathing suits on and went to the pool! This was our first time going at night, and it was fun! The girls were so excited because the lights on the bottom of the kiddie pool changed colors. And their friends were there too! J and I knew the friends would be there, but we hadn't told P and K, just in case they couldn't show up. So yeah, it was a great few hours of water. The girls did great, by the way which makes me so very happy.
I am almost done readying Fahrenheit 451. Can you believe I have never read it? Well, I should finish it tonight. And I am blown away by how different the writing styles were when it was written. The style reminds me a lot of 1984, which I like. It just takes a minute to adjust your brain to it. But I gotta say, this book is not as amazing as I thought it would be. Why exactly is it considered 'a classic'??
Friday, January 7, 2011
#39
I just got done watching Parts 1 and 2 of "The Pacific" and I think I am going to be a happy girl. I am already falling in love with this show. I am so happy J bought this series.
We were talking while we were watching, of course. J did the Army critique. And the "Yeah, that's the Marines for you" comments flew out. "I would have my squad do A, B and C..." I recapped history stuff for him. It was a great evening for us!
Today in general was a good day. I took the girls to McDonalds to play with their friend C. McD's is the only play place near us. And when it is cold and snowy and yucky outside, it is pretty much our only choice for play. But it worked out quite nicely for us. The girls had fun playing with their friends, and I got to chat with a great friend. Thanks!
No nap for the monkeys today, which is sad. I was really hoping all that play would wear them out. It did. But they just got cranky. Until Daddy walked through the door. As soon as he walked in, they were happy and silly and great listeners. Some days, that attitude switch just irks me.
And, taadaa, I made homemade tortillas! Strangely, that is the first time I have ever tried. But they turned out pretty good. This would have been easier if I had a tortilla press, though. I think I should invest in one! Which led to online window shopping for kitchen gadgets, bake ware, kitchen goodness in general. Man, there are so many things I want!
Thanking God for clear roads, nice chats with good friends, and sleeping toddlers.
We were talking while we were watching, of course. J did the Army critique. And the "Yeah, that's the Marines for you" comments flew out. "I would have my squad do A, B and C..." I recapped history stuff for him. It was a great evening for us!
Today in general was a good day. I took the girls to McDonalds to play with their friend C. McD's is the only play place near us. And when it is cold and snowy and yucky outside, it is pretty much our only choice for play. But it worked out quite nicely for us. The girls had fun playing with their friends, and I got to chat with a great friend. Thanks!
No nap for the monkeys today, which is sad. I was really hoping all that play would wear them out. It did. But they just got cranky. Until Daddy walked through the door. As soon as he walked in, they were happy and silly and great listeners. Some days, that attitude switch just irks me.
And, taadaa, I made homemade tortillas! Strangely, that is the first time I have ever tried. But they turned out pretty good. This would have been easier if I had a tortilla press, though. I think I should invest in one! Which led to online window shopping for kitchen gadgets, bake ware, kitchen goodness in general. Man, there are so many things I want!
Thanking God for clear roads, nice chats with good friends, and sleeping toddlers.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
#38
Yesterday, I didn't wake up on time. Actually, I woke up 1hr 45 min late. I know, crazy. But I swore I had set my alarm, and I hadn't turned it off. Of course, J thought "whatever, lazy ass. Now we are late..." Then, last night I got in bed and reached over to set my alarm. And it was still set from the night before! Apparently there is a short or something. Who knows. It worked this morning.
But, the weather ruined my plans for the day. I was going to go to Play group, have lunch with friends, and swing by the library. J woke me up and told me that the roads were essentially sheets of ice. Post was pretty much shut down, everything was cancelled... Except J's day! He still had to drive to a diff post a few hrs away, on the icy Autobahn. Yeah, I was really irritated about the way his command handled that situation. But I am just the lowly dependent, right?
And I was irritated about my trip to the library being cancelled! They have a book waiting for me on the hold shelf. And I had nothing to watch today (I borrow tv shows and movies from the library because I don't have cable or anything here). Here's hoping I can go tomorrow.
I was searching for my rosary earlier today. I thought it should be on my dresser, but I couldn't find it. I told St Anthony that I was sure he was busy, but doesn't a search for a rosary, bought at a monastery, bump me up his list? In the end, I think it did. It was stuck under a pile of 'skinny clothes' somehow. All that matters is I found it. The reason for the search? I have an awesome rosary with red, white, and blue beads. But it is long. So I forget it almost every Sunday. That makes saying the Rosary a little difficult... But my wooden rosary (which I found thanks to St Anthony) is smaller. And quieter. It even fits in the change zipper of my wallet. So Sunday I will not forget it. Yay.
Highlight of today: Well, today I have 2. My girls took a nap! I know, yesterday I was complaining about them not napping. Well, at 12:45 I couldn't take it anymore. I told them they either had to stop crying and clean up, or they had to take a nap. I kid you not, they walked to their room and told me 'nite nite'. Didn't hear from them for 3 hours. It was great. And the second highlight is J bought us "The Pacific"! I am so excited to watch it. I know, I am a nerd. Deal with it.
But, the weather ruined my plans for the day. I was going to go to Play group, have lunch with friends, and swing by the library. J woke me up and told me that the roads were essentially sheets of ice. Post was pretty much shut down, everything was cancelled... Except J's day! He still had to drive to a diff post a few hrs away, on the icy Autobahn. Yeah, I was really irritated about the way his command handled that situation. But I am just the lowly dependent, right?
And I was irritated about my trip to the library being cancelled! They have a book waiting for me on the hold shelf. And I had nothing to watch today (I borrow tv shows and movies from the library because I don't have cable or anything here). Here's hoping I can go tomorrow.
I was searching for my rosary earlier today. I thought it should be on my dresser, but I couldn't find it. I told St Anthony that I was sure he was busy, but doesn't a search for a rosary, bought at a monastery, bump me up his list? In the end, I think it did. It was stuck under a pile of 'skinny clothes' somehow. All that matters is I found it. The reason for the search? I have an awesome rosary with red, white, and blue beads. But it is long. So I forget it almost every Sunday. That makes saying the Rosary a little difficult... But my wooden rosary (which I found thanks to St Anthony) is smaller. And quieter. It even fits in the change zipper of my wallet. So Sunday I will not forget it. Yay.
Highlight of today: Well, today I have 2. My girls took a nap! I know, yesterday I was complaining about them not napping. Well, at 12:45 I couldn't take it anymore. I told them they either had to stop crying and clean up, or they had to take a nap. I kid you not, they walked to their room and told me 'nite nite'. Didn't hear from them for 3 hours. It was great. And the second highlight is J bought us "The Pacific"! I am so excited to watch it. I know, I am a nerd. Deal with it.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
#37
I think my daughters are officially done with naps.
I am not happy.
Nap time is MY time. We eat lunch, clean up, read a book, then the girls lay down. They sleep for 2-3 hours. I clean, do laundry, read, watch tv, shower, pick my nose. I do whatever I want/need to do. heck, every once in a while I take a nap my darn self.
Nope, not any more. If we lay them down, they do not sleep. They talk, and laugh, and fight, and jump. They have a grand old time. They scream like someone is trying to kill them. They call out "Mommy! Daddy! All done!" They do not sleep.
I repeat, I am not happy.
During our not-nap time, I tried to get them to relax and watch a movie. Beauty and The Beast. yay! I got out their sleeping bags (which are awesome, by the way) and told the girls they were not allowed to get up. K was pretty content to watch the movie in her 'seep bag' for about an hour, which was great. Her sister, P, was not content to sit still.
P was getting up to get Eisbar (polar bear in German) then green bear (good luck bear) then Minnie Mouse, then who knows what else. I got tired of hearing myself, so I stopped telling her to lay down and watch the movie. She was too busy playing with her toys.
So I made bath time crayons. Well, I think I did. We will find out on Friday how well they actually turn out. It's a bar of soap that I grated, added water and food coloring, and then put into molds. They have to set and harden for 2 days. Like I said, we will see on Friday if they actually are bath time crayons!
Oh, and I got my 2011 Catholic Saints calender! yay! I love that thing. It just makes me happy to look at it.
I am not happy.
Nap time is MY time. We eat lunch, clean up, read a book, then the girls lay down. They sleep for 2-3 hours. I clean, do laundry, read, watch tv, shower, pick my nose. I do whatever I want/need to do. heck, every once in a while I take a nap my darn self.
Nope, not any more. If we lay them down, they do not sleep. They talk, and laugh, and fight, and jump. They have a grand old time. They scream like someone is trying to kill them. They call out "Mommy! Daddy! All done!" They do not sleep.
I repeat, I am not happy.
During our not-nap time, I tried to get them to relax and watch a movie. Beauty and The Beast. yay! I got out their sleeping bags (which are awesome, by the way) and told the girls they were not allowed to get up. K was pretty content to watch the movie in her 'seep bag' for about an hour, which was great. Her sister, P, was not content to sit still.
P was getting up to get Eisbar (polar bear in German) then green bear (good luck bear) then Minnie Mouse, then who knows what else. I got tired of hearing myself, so I stopped telling her to lay down and watch the movie. She was too busy playing with her toys.
So I made bath time crayons. Well, I think I did. We will find out on Friday how well they actually turn out. It's a bar of soap that I grated, added water and food coloring, and then put into molds. They have to set and harden for 2 days. Like I said, we will see on Friday if they actually are bath time crayons!
Oh, and I got my 2011 Catholic Saints calender! yay! I love that thing. It just makes me happy to look at it.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
#36
J and I were talking about leaving Germany, PCSing, getting a sponsor at our new duty station, blah, yada, etc. And it hit me. In 4 months, I will be leaving Germany. I will watch as complete strangers pack up all my belongings. I will turn over the keys to a house I have called home for almost 2 years. I will board a plane (to Italy, hopefully! then...) and fly home to my new home.
Holy moly Batman!!! Or as my bestest M says, holy hole in a donut, Batman!
I am so excited to move back to the States. I have missed my country since the place took off from DFW back in May 2008. I cannot wait to check out a new part of the country, to get a new house, new friends, and a new unit for J. I can't wait to really show my girls their country. They may not have been born in America, but they are all American, so I can't wait to show them all there is to their country. I want them to be as proud as I am to fly the red, white, and blue.
But the thing I am so excited about, right now, is the transition. I know, I sound like I have lost my marbles. I haven't, I assure you. For the B family, the transition from Germany living to American living will most likely have a bit of a layover in the Mediterranean! We are hoping to take a cruise. So we would clear from Germany, fly to Italy, do our cruise thing, fly back to Germany to pick up our dogs and fly to the US.
This has been my hope for over a year now. But, the planning was impossible until we had some sort of idea when/where we were going. Now that we are so very close, I have had a chance to check it out a little more, and actually talk to J about it. He was not a fan of spending that much money. But he was a fan of not having to do anything while I looked at 4 different countries! He loathes driving, and finding places to park, and the language barrier, and just traveling in general. With a cruise, though, we just get to do the fun stuff, like eat and look at buildings and such!
So today he agreed to go, without actually agreeing. Which means he is ok with it! I just have to figure out all the details, make all the arrangements, and when it comes time for it, I will have to do all the packing. But who cares. If all goes well, I will see Italy, Greece, Turkey, and Croatia!
That was pretty much all I thought about today. Me, in the Mediterranean. In the sunshine!
Holy moly Batman!!! Or as my bestest M says, holy hole in a donut, Batman!
I am so excited to move back to the States. I have missed my country since the place took off from DFW back in May 2008. I cannot wait to check out a new part of the country, to get a new house, new friends, and a new unit for J. I can't wait to really show my girls their country. They may not have been born in America, but they are all American, so I can't wait to show them all there is to their country. I want them to be as proud as I am to fly the red, white, and blue.
But the thing I am so excited about, right now, is the transition. I know, I sound like I have lost my marbles. I haven't, I assure you. For the B family, the transition from Germany living to American living will most likely have a bit of a layover in the Mediterranean! We are hoping to take a cruise. So we would clear from Germany, fly to Italy, do our cruise thing, fly back to Germany to pick up our dogs and fly to the US.
This has been my hope for over a year now. But, the planning was impossible until we had some sort of idea when/where we were going. Now that we are so very close, I have had a chance to check it out a little more, and actually talk to J about it. He was not a fan of spending that much money. But he was a fan of not having to do anything while I looked at 4 different countries! He loathes driving, and finding places to park, and the language barrier, and just traveling in general. With a cruise, though, we just get to do the fun stuff, like eat and look at buildings and such!
So today he agreed to go, without actually agreeing. Which means he is ok with it! I just have to figure out all the details, make all the arrangements, and when it comes time for it, I will have to do all the packing. But who cares. If all goes well, I will see Italy, Greece, Turkey, and Croatia!
That was pretty much all I thought about today. Me, in the Mediterranean. In the sunshine!
Monday, January 3, 2011
#35
J went back to work today. Technically he went back last Tuesday, but they were only working half days, and PT was cancelled because of the weather. So today was his first real day back to work. I had a good time with him home, but I gotta say, it was nice to get back to normal. When J is home I expect him to do more than he does. And he expects to be on 'vacation'. So that causes issues. And if he isn't going to clean than why should I? You can imagine where that goes... Butt he went back to work today, and I cleaned.
P and K were in horrible moods and they didn't take a nap. They are getting to the point where a nap is not a reliable thing. Which really sucks for me. P and K have been great sleepers, since birth. I am used to 3 hour naps. Now, I am lucky if they sleep for 30 minutes. This is so going to take some adjusting.
Happy note, I slept last night! 11:30 to 4 am without a single wake up in there! Then from 4:30 to 6 I got a few more minutes. And when I look at it that way, it sounds horrible. But compared to lately, that was a great night sleep! And, yay, no freaky dreams. Thank you, Lord.
Oh! And I am trying to get a some ladies together to do a recipe exchange. I am weird and love cook books. So I am inviting a few ladies to my house, where we will check out each others' cook books. And eat and chat and all that jazz. I am really hoping it works out! I think it sounds fun, hopefully I am not alone in that!
P and K were in horrible moods and they didn't take a nap. They are getting to the point where a nap is not a reliable thing. Which really sucks for me. P and K have been great sleepers, since birth. I am used to 3 hour naps. Now, I am lucky if they sleep for 30 minutes. This is so going to take some adjusting.
Happy note, I slept last night! 11:30 to 4 am without a single wake up in there! Then from 4:30 to 6 I got a few more minutes. And when I look at it that way, it sounds horrible. But compared to lately, that was a great night sleep! And, yay, no freaky dreams. Thank you, Lord.
Oh! And I am trying to get a some ladies together to do a recipe exchange. I am weird and love cook books. So I am inviting a few ladies to my house, where we will check out each others' cook books. And eat and chat and all that jazz. I am really hoping it works out! I think it sounds fun, hopefully I am not alone in that!
Sunday, January 2, 2011
#34
My daughters crack me up. Today, during Father's homily, P said "All done, father!" He didn't hear her, thankfully! So then she said it a few minutes later... I was trying not to crack up, but come on! It was hilarious! I think I will keep her.
Grocery shopping at the commissary was oh so fun. Ok, not really. I loathe grocery shopping, especially at the commissary here. They are always out of things I need. So tomorrow I will have to go to the Germany bakery. Aw, shucks!! Ok, lets be honest: I love that place!
For dinner, I made ham and cauliflower soup. I do not like ham. I do not like cauliflower. I adore them together in this soup. I know, that makes no sense. But this soup is just that good. I also has onion and potato flakes and pepper jack cheese. So good.
But, as soup usually is, it was hot. So I told the girls, 'It's hot. Be careful.' They then refused to eat because 'soup hot, mommy!' They ended up having chocolate milk and a couple saltines with peanut butter for dinner. Woo! I was a little mad though, because that soup was wasted! Really, that is how much I like this soup...
And I am so exhausted. The crazy dreams and struggle to sleep continues. It is 7:15 pm and I am ready for bed. I am going to make some Sleepytime tea and start a new book.
Grocery shopping at the commissary was oh so fun. Ok, not really. I loathe grocery shopping, especially at the commissary here. They are always out of things I need. So tomorrow I will have to go to the Germany bakery. Aw, shucks!! Ok, lets be honest: I love that place!
For dinner, I made ham and cauliflower soup. I do not like ham. I do not like cauliflower. I adore them together in this soup. I know, that makes no sense. But this soup is just that good. I also has onion and potato flakes and pepper jack cheese. So good.
But, as soup usually is, it was hot. So I told the girls, 'It's hot. Be careful.' They then refused to eat because 'soup hot, mommy!' They ended up having chocolate milk and a couple saltines with peanut butter for dinner. Woo! I was a little mad though, because that soup was wasted! Really, that is how much I like this soup...
And I am so exhausted. The crazy dreams and struggle to sleep continues. It is 7:15 pm and I am ready for bed. I am going to make some Sleepytime tea and start a new book.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
#33
Hello, 2011.
This new year has started off without a bit of fanfare from the B house. We didn't do anything spectacular last night at Midnight. J had just come to bed, and I was trying with every fiber of my being to fall asleep. And we didn't even eat black eyed peas today, gasp! My family always says we have to eat them on January 1, but I don't even remember why. Luck? Prosperity? Who knows.
My girls were up my butt today. And I could have done without that. I love the little monkeys, but some days I feel like I need extra room to breath. Thankfully, J was trying really hard to be an awesome hubby and daddy, so I got that extra room.
Don't get me wrong, I have the coolest kids on the planet. I think the lack of sleep is getting to me, though. Yeah, in case you were wondering, still not sleeping great. But I have high hopes for tonight!
I read a book today called Blood fever, second book in a series. Yes, I read the whole book today. It was good, and weird, and had just enough Celtic lore to keep me from calling it too out there. In the book, which takes place in Dublin, there are all these creepers and magic and such. But I still found myself wishing I was in Ireland!
I had a good day. I did nothing, I didn't even shower until after 4. Ew, I know, but I was just that lazy today. Even though I was a crappy mom, my girls were awesome to me. And the husband was pretty great today. You know, there are days when your spouse drives you absolutely insane. Today, he reminded me why I love him! He was just a great guy. He IS a great guy, but today he hit me with the full force of his awesomeness. He didn't cure cancer or write me a love song. He just was.
This new year has started off without a bit of fanfare from the B house. We didn't do anything spectacular last night at Midnight. J had just come to bed, and I was trying with every fiber of my being to fall asleep. And we didn't even eat black eyed peas today, gasp! My family always says we have to eat them on January 1, but I don't even remember why. Luck? Prosperity? Who knows.
My girls were up my butt today. And I could have done without that. I love the little monkeys, but some days I feel like I need extra room to breath. Thankfully, J was trying really hard to be an awesome hubby and daddy, so I got that extra room.
Don't get me wrong, I have the coolest kids on the planet. I think the lack of sleep is getting to me, though. Yeah, in case you were wondering, still not sleeping great. But I have high hopes for tonight!
I read a book today called Blood fever, second book in a series. Yes, I read the whole book today. It was good, and weird, and had just enough Celtic lore to keep me from calling it too out there. In the book, which takes place in Dublin, there are all these creepers and magic and such. But I still found myself wishing I was in Ireland!
I had a good day. I did nothing, I didn't even shower until after 4. Ew, I know, but I was just that lazy today. Even though I was a crappy mom, my girls were awesome to me. And the husband was pretty great today. You know, there are days when your spouse drives you absolutely insane. Today, he reminded me why I love him! He was just a great guy. He IS a great guy, but today he hit me with the full force of his awesomeness. He didn't cure cancer or write me a love song. He just was.
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