#325

Today I sucked as a mom. Really really sucked. 

The morning started of like every other morning. Cheerful happy girls, ready to have fun and enjoy a great day. Fast forward a couple hours. I was in the kitchen making applesauce, P was watching me, K was sobbing in her room. I do not know why, but I know it continued for half an hour. Then P cried. Then they fought. Then they got hurt. We ate lunch. We played. 

They did not take a nap. Instead they took every toy they owned and spread the ridiculous amount of crap around their room. While I was on the phone with my dad, trying to get paperwork filled out for him. Because he is pretty much blind and can't do it. 

So when I was done with that, I dealt with my rebel daughters. After a time out, they were told to pick up their toys. Multiple times. So, I picked up all their toys. And put them in the closet. 

They have stuffed animals and books. I don't feel like they are neglected. I am a little sad that they didn't seem too upset about their toys being taken away- took away from the punishment factor. But it is great that they aren't super attached to 'stuff'. 

After that, their bad behavior continued. And my way of handling it deteriorated. I was just done with little girls that didn't want to listen. 

After dinner, though, we sat on the couch and read a trillion books. Library books that were new to us, that were fun and silly and colorful and left a ton to be filled in with our imaginations. My daughters love books. And after our not so great day, it was perfect to sit and love something together. 

I blew it, repeatedly, today. Instead of being calm and nice and patient, I was horrible and angry. If this is God trying to help me practice the virtues I need work on, then I am want to call a time out. Because another day like today and I will be buying a one way ticket to anywhere!

I love my girls to pieces. I do not like the girl I was today. Thankfully, my girls rock, and they love Mommy even when I suck.